Passing Through Love.

Old memories floating around

||||||||||||||| Chapter Fifteen: Old memories floating around ||||||||||||||||

''Diana...''I heard Nate say a minute later and I got up to my feet quickly.I looked over at him and he crossed his arms over his wide chest,again.

''We need to talk..I am not happy about what just happened''He said and I nodded,I knew we would have to talk,I knew it,but I had nothing to say...what would I say?I had no clue.

I looked down at my feet then up at him ,pushing a lock of blonde hair behind my hair.

''Okay?''He said a few seconds later.

''Okay what..I have no single thing to say.Nathan I ..''I started but I stopped when he frowned and took a step closer.

''Nathan?''He asked ,arcing his brow.

Oh..I always call him Nate.Only when I am angry I actualy call him by his full name.

''Nate,I ..I don't know what happened.....I don't know why I didn't tell you.I can't lie and say it's because I was worried or stressed or...or because what's happening affected me,because I myself aren't sure those are the reasons''I stuttered ,trying to find the right words to say,to explain what's happening,but it was hard,because I myself didn't know why I didn't just be honest.

''So you weren't scared of my reaction?''He asked.His voice calm and sweet.He wasn't angry and at the moment it was a relief for some reason.

''N..No.I am never scared to tell you something,you never get mad at me''I admitted looking straight at him,my eyes already full of tears.

''Then talk to me now,Dana,answer me..There must be a reason of why you didn't tell me''He said and I shook my head.

I didn't know what to say.That I knew it won't last,that there is no reason to tell him about another relationship that will end soon,a relationship that will end once we get home?...Home? if we ever went home..I thought and slowly I started to realize what it is,why I had been so hesitant lately,why I only felt a slight relief when Liam is near..he's the only one that doesn't remind me of home,he makes us lost in a small bubble,he makes me forget that we're lost,that we're not home..that we have been here for two weeks and that there is a big possibility we're never going home again..Oh,my ..Home.

''Nate...'' I started and looked up at him,I didn't realize I had been looking away.

''What is wrong? you have been different lately''He said calmly but I could notice his worried tone under his controlled one.

''Nate,I want to go home'' I said,breaking at the last word.

There it was,the truth was finally out.I had been the only one that didn't panic or get totally depressed and here I was now..breaking.

''I want to go home,Nate.I don't want to stay here anymore...I want my room at college,I want to wake up in my bed,I want to be able to open the windows and hear people singing,talking and walking in the building..I even..I even want to study,I just want to go home''I said,the words rushing out quickly,I wasn't sure he would be able to hear them all,but I knew I needed to get everything out.So taking a deep breath I completed ''I didn't want to tell you about Liam because I don't think me and him would be any different than my other relationships.A week or two and that's it..He just..He just takes me away from this reality.I don't remember home when I am talking to him..Unlike when I look at you,or at Olivia,or Nora or Leo or even Lauren,When I look at you all I remember home..but with him,well I have no good memories with him back home ,he ...''

''He makes you forget we're lost''Nathan completed and I nodded.

I couldn't take it any longer and so I let it out,I cried.It weren't just a few tears ,I was literally sobbing,no longer caring to act strong.A second later and I was in Nate's arms,but that only made me cry more.