Passing Through Love.

Red

||||||||||||||| Chapter Thirty-Two:  Red |||||||||||||||

''What do you want,Liam? You've been asking meaningless questions for the last hour..''I said frowning.''Did you like the room? Did you sleep? Do you have anything tomorrow? So,are you really free? Do you have plans to see anyone ? Is your work tiring you? Do you have any more concerts? Is Emily going to call you early tomorrow?...Seriously,Liam,What does Emily have to do with this,huh? What do you want?'' I snapped,before taking a deep breath.

''Did I really never talk to you much when we were together?'' He asked,sounding suddenly tired.

I sighed deeply,thinking for a second before answering.I didn't know why he suddenly came back to my life,or what he was trying to do now,but whatever it is,it sure was sending me crazy.

Then let it all go already,It's been so long.Came the voice of the nice version of my subconsious.

And,as always,she was right.Since the day he called me in that interview and I've held nothing but anger and coldness towards him,even though he did try to be funny,cool and sometime even understanding.  I have been so cold to him,even though it's not who I am.

In a  moment of clear thinking,I realized that I did become like snow when it came to him.I've become cold,and that's not me.With this realization in mind,I decided to do just what my subconsious asked me to do,to finally let go.To stop with all those small inner fights between me and my heart. I deserved peace,right? My heart deserves some peace.I mean,All this mess happened years ago,I shouldn't be holding anything against him. He is like any of my other exes that were before him.We tried,we failed,I moved on..and I am beyond happy with Antone,so why hold any grudges?

He wasn't just like any of your exes.You gave him your heart.Snapped my subconsious,and I was really starting to mentally decide to lock her away again. You're such a  hypocrite ....I snapped at myself before shaking my head,making a decision.

''Diana,you still there?''Liam's voice came suddenly through the phone and I  realized he has been waiting for an answer for a while now.

''Erm ,yes,I am ..''I answered lamely before frowning. 

''So..?''He started and waited.

Giving up,I decided to tell the truth,if I wanted a clean start,then I'll have to let go of the past.All of it,and tell the truth. ''You never talked about anything personal...I guess,you never trusted me enough.''

''I trusted you more than I trusted anyone in this world''He said,sounding honest enough,but I knew better.If he trusted me he would've spoken to me,right?

''I don't want to fight.And it's already over,so why re-open the past?.Look,Liam I am..well,it's hard to explain,but it is over.Us is over..and beside,it's almost four and half in the morning.This day has been so long,I want it to end already..So why don't you tell me what you want and allow us both to go to sleep?''I asked,making sure my voice is calm.