"Akala ko ba mutual kami ng feelings?" I slumped my face on my bed. "E parang pabor nga syang nililigawan ako ni Ged e."
"Sabi nga ni Bei. Kung feeling mo meron. Meron yan." Jia said not bothering to look at her as she jot down some notes. "Feeling mo ba meron?"
I bit my lip and sat. I grabbed the pillow from my bed to hug it.
"Actually sinabi nya ng gusto nya ako e." I said almost in a whisper
Jia stopped and turned to look at me with eyes wide in shock.
"Huy! Di ko alam yan ha! Kelan nya sinabi?" Jia said and sat on my bed completely leaving whatever she was doing earlier.
"Hindi nya direktang sinabi. Narinig ko lang habang nag-u-usap sila ni Michifu kahapon sa room nila." I said and hugged the pillow tighter to supress my kilig.
"Oh tapos?" Jia said eyes filled with anticipation
"Ayun tapos na."
"Anong tapos na?"
"Yun na yun. Pumasok ako sa room nila kunwari di ko narinig kaso di naman sya umamin. Iniba nya lang yung topic."
"Ay boring." Jia said and returned to her table. I threw the pillow I was hugging in which she threw it back at me.
"So ano balak mo? Mukha namang wala ng balak umamin yang si Bei e." Jia said and started writing again.
"Tantya-Tantya Bes." I said and leaned my back against the headboard
"Tantya-Tantya? Nako hanggang kelan? E uuwi na ng Japan si Bei." Jia said and I froze.
"Uuwi na sya?" I said surprized. "Ah para lang sa bakasyon, tama?" I asked hoping Jia would agree with me.
Jia worriedly looked at me and she sat on my bed, again. "Di ko alam yung detalye pero ang sabi-sabi kasi dun na nya tatapusin yung pag-a-aral nya."
"E pa'no na kami?" I suddenly blurted out my thoughts.
Jia laughed. "May kayo ba, Bes?"
I glared at her but then I realized she's right. There was never an us.
"Oo na. Walang kami."
"So ayaw mo na? Suko na?" Jia asked me and I frowned.
"Ano ba, Bes. Supporter ka ba o kontra?"
"Ganun agad? Di pwedeng nagtanong lang?" Jia said chuckling. "Kung ayaw umamin ni Bei edi ikaw na lang."
"Ano!? Ayoko nga. Sya muna umamin!" I exclaimed.
"Kung aamin. E pano kung hindi?" Jia asked. A question that kept me up all night.
Pa'no nga kung hindi?
Days after, ALE organized a farewell party for Bea.
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"Emo." I heard Bea say and stood beside me, drink in hand. "Huy, jowa desu."
I ignored her as I continue to stare into the horizon.
"Sige ka, Jho. If you don't talk to me now. Matagal-tagal din bago mo ako makausap ulit." Bea said playfully and put an arm on my shoulder.
"Edi go. I'm sure masaya ka na aalis ka." I say
"Super!" Bea happily but it turned my stomach upside down.
