Plan B

creating a monster

I wake up to the sound of pans clanging against each other, I lay there in my big warm bed feeling annoyed at the sudden noise. I feel around for my phone being surprised by the good morning texts from Elijah.

E- good morning, I'm excited to see you today.

the short but sweet text sends a smile on my face. I reply back with basically the same text. I throw the fluffy blanket off of my body and let my legs dangle over the edge of the bed. once I make up my mind if I should get up or go back to sleep, I make my way over to my closet. pulling out a medium wash, jean short overalls and a white t shirt I throw them onto my messy bed.

I then go to my dresser and pull out the top drawer revealing where I kept my underwear and bras.

picking out a matching pink set I hide them under a towel and quickly make my way to the bathroom outside my room. I turn the water on after closing and locking the door. making sure it was at least a little warm I then take off my night cloths and let them fall onto the burgundy rug I stood on, in front of the sink.

stepping inside the shower I make sure I hurry up and not dilly dally. as soon as I rinsed my hair of the conditioner I turned off the water and stepped out wrapping a white towel around my body.

looking into the mirror I stare at myself.

wet hair weighing down my head,
medium body frame,
small boobs,
barley any thigh gap,
eye bags..

just some of the things I don't like, its not like I can control most of the things I don't like but I feel like if those were changed it would make me feel better. forcing myself to stop pointing out my flaws I sluggishly go back to my room making sure I put my dirty clothes in the hamper.

I switch the towel from my body, to my head wrapping my hair inside it. I throw on my under garments then my clothes. my beat up, black and white converse hide inside my closet near the back before I pull them out after slipping my feet into a pair of white ankle socks.

I grab my phone from off the charger and then my back pack. I open my phone and call luna.

"hello?" I can hear the wind fill the speaker of her phone barley hearing the words luna is speaking.

"hey are picking me up today?" I ask coming down the stairs.

" yeah I'm almost there." she replies breaking up.

"ok see ya." I answer before hanging up.

the house is quite and still. "they're not here." I mumble under my breathe.

I hear a honk outside and rush out the door. hopping into luna's car I notice her outfit; army green hooded utility jacket, short flowy black dress, sheer black tights, and the same shoes as me but cleaner.

"we're matching shoes." I giggle.

" best friend telepathy." she laughed as she pulled into the parking lot of our high school.

"so what time is levi picking you up tonight?" she asked making me loose all train of thought.

" shit, I forget to text him that I cant go out tonight." I complain.

"what why?!" luna exclaims concerned.

"because I wanna go somewhere tomorrow and if I go out tonight my parents wont let me go tomorrow." I explain.

"whats more important than going on a date with levi?" she questions me incredulously.

we walk through the hallway to our lockers getting looks from almost everyone around us.

"pay attention to your own business people!" luna shouts making everyone turn back to what they were doing.

"i want to go see my sister all next week and this weekend." I tell her leaving out that I'm going on a date with one of our teachers.

"oh ok makes sense. I'm surprised that your parents are actually letting you go over to her place."

"theyre not that's why I'm telling them I'm spending break with you." I say quickly.

luna glances at me with a smirk lingering on her face. " what?" I question getting weirded out by her.

"nothing, I'm just creating a monster." she laughs.

"whats that supposed to mean?" I look at her furrowing my eyebrows.

"you weren't like this when we became friends, I got you into smoking drinking and now lying to your parents." she tells me.

"yeah but this is my sister I want to see so I don't think its that bad of a thing to lie to them about." I shrug, luna mimics my actions and then gives me a quick side hug before leaving me at my first period class.

I walk into the packed room and take my seat in the middle of the classroom. I set my bag down in between my legs and pull out my note book. i start to doze off listening to the teachers boring lecture.