Living That O2L Life

Chapter 13: Confessions of a Teenage Vine Star

I had so much fun filming with the boys that I forgot what time it was. I looked down at my phone and the time was 6:35.

"I have to get going. I'm sorry."

"It's fine. We gotta go too. But we should do this again sometime." Hayes said with a smile.

"Yes. We definitely should. Jay, you're awesome. Don't let anything ruin your life." Nash said. I gave them both hugs.

"You guys are so cute."

"Yeah. I know." Hayes said, dramatically flipping his hair. If he were a couple years older, I would find him more attractive but he's younger than me so there goes that idea. I smiled and looked over at Cameron. He was staring out at the ocean but he wasn't within earshot.

"Excuse me guys. I have to go talk to Cameron." I said while walking up to him.

"Hey Jay."

"Hey. Mind if I join you?" I asked. He had been watching the sunset.

"Go ahead." he said, moving over so I had a spot to sit. I sat down and he turned towards me. "Do you and Nash have a thing?"

"What? No." I denied. I couldnt help but smile at the thought of me and Nash though.

"It sure seems like you do. You guys were constantly flirting with each other out there. And if you could only see the way he looks at you. His eyes light up whenever you talk to him. If I didn't know any better, I'd say our little Nash has a crush on you. And so does Hayes."

"I doubt that Nash does but I wouldn't be surprised if his dear little brother did. Now that's something that's obvious." I said and we both laughed. Cameron had a gorgeous laugh. Damn it.

"Yeah. It is quite obvious ain't it?"

"Yeah. It is. I bet he's happy that Connor hurt me."

"Well yeah. Of course he is. To be honest, we all are." he mumbled the last sentence to himself but I heard it.

"What?"

"Nothing."

"You said something. What was it?"

"It was nothing."

"Fine. I'm gonna go." I went to stand up but Cameron grabbed my hand and turned me around. The second I was facing him, his lips were connected to mine. I wasn't going to lie. It was amazing but nothing like Connors kisses. When Connor kissed me, I felt everything but when Cameron kissed me, I felt a little bit of sparks. I briefly kissed him back before he pulled away. He was obviously shocked at what he saw. I turned around to see what he saw and there he was. Connor was standing in front of us, his face twisted into hurt and sorrow.

"Connor, I..."

"Just save it. I came here to apologize for the whole 'Bringing Allison home' thing but clearly, you don't even care."

"I do. It's just that..."

"Don't explain anything. I know that you clearly have feelings for Cameron. It's obvious. I'll just get out of the picture so you can be happy."

"No Connor."

"I'm done. Goodbye Jaycee." he said before walking away. The moment he wasn't in sight, the tears poured down my face and I ran off in the opposite direction, ignoring Cameron and the boys as they called my name.

I reached the house and ran up to my room, ignoring the calls from JC and the others. Connor was nowhere to be seen. I went into the bathroom that was between my room and Sam's room. I locked the door and went to the hiding spot where I hid all the things from my past. I pulled out the razors and a towel. Thinking back to everything that has happened, I put the blade against my skin. Just when I was about to press it down, my phone started ringing. I let it go to voicemail since I couldn't stand talking to anyone right now. When the screen lit up again, I hit the voicemail button and Connors voice filled my ears.

Hey Jay. It's Connor. Listen, I know you love Cameron. So I think it's best that we stop seeing each other. But I want you to know that I will always love you no matter what. I've loved you since day one and I'm never going to stop. You're the most perfect and amazing girl in the world. I want you to be happy. I know I've screwed up in the past but I never want you to getbhurt by me again. I love the small things you do. Like when you play with your thumbs while you're nervous or when you giggle at everything. I'm sorry for hurting you more than once. But you know what they say. If you love something, set it free. If It comes back, it was meant to be. And if it doesn't then you just have to move on. So I'm letting you go. If you decided to forgive me then I know I've done something right and that you really love me. And again, you're so perfect. It's killing me not to be with you. I love you Jay. Please don't ever change. Bye.

And his voice was gone. What was ain't going to do?

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A/N: the end...

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