Cherish || grayson dolan

fourty six

He's home. I sit on Ethan's bed next to Emercyn and feel like my insides are going to burst. I began to feel nervous while my anger and sadness started to build up. I wanted to run through the door and shout at him for going behind my back and lying to me, while at the same time I wanted to hear his excuse, which I could only assume would be a pathetic one seeing as the photos show a lot.

"What the hell is wrong with you?" I look at Emercyn as Ethan shouts. It was pretty muffled from the walls. I begin to stand when Emercyn grabs my arm, pulling me down.

"Are you seriously that stupid? You thought you could get away with that and not tell her? Pictures are everywhere you dip shit!" Ethan shouts again. I bite my lip and close my eyes. I squeeze Emercyns hand.

"Where is she?" I hear him say. I begin to shake and feel like the ground is about to give out from underneath me.

"You need to talk to him." Emercyn tells me softly. I nod my head because I know she is right. I just am hurting and all of this is so much to take in right now.

Emercyn tells me she'll go get him and give my a few seconds to myself. I nod my head and give her a hug as I sit on the bed, holding my head in my hands. I look at my unicorn sock covered feet and sigh. This is happening.

I hear the door slowly open and I look up to meet those oh so familiar hazel  eyes. He looks scared, guilty, and sad all at the same time. He closes his eyes and licks his lips as he slides his hands into his front pockets.

"Hayden-" He begins to walk towards me but I put my hands up, making him stop.

"Do not come near me." I whisper. "If you want to talk, talk from right there." I tell him, looking away. I want to cry already.

"What did you see?" He asks.

"My suppose to be sick boyfriend eating FroYo with his former love of his life who he was not suppose to be with. I told you that I didn't mind you meeting up with her just as long as I was there because I feared her pulling something on you. I respect you enough to be okay with that, yet you can't even respect what I want. You went behind my back Grayson. Not only did you lie to me though, you lied to everyone who was wanting to be with you today. You are suppose to be sick right now, in bed. I am suppose to be loving you and nursing you to become better." I look at him and he looks away, not even able to look me in the eyes.

"You hurt me. A lot. And this has taken our relationship three steps back when it comes to trust because I thought you could trust me and I could trust you. Obviously not though if you feel the need to go behind my back. Were you even going to tell me?" I ask. He looks at me and I swear I could see tears breaming in his eyes.

"Yes." He says. "I felt so awful as soon as she begged me to meet up with her. She threatened to not only give out my phone number, but where I live, H. She told me not to tell you when I told her you said not unless you were there." He says.

"You let her control you, Grayson. This is a side of you I have never seen before and I don't know if I like it." I feel a tear slide down my
cheek which makes him jolt forward. I put my right hand up to make him stop as I wipe it away with my left.

"I respect you Hayden, but that was not only putting my privacy on the line, but Ethans as well. Also yours and Emercyn's while you are with us. I couldn't do that. I know it looks bad but I would never do such a thing, especially after everything you have been through." He steps forward and I want to stop him but I can't. He does it anyways, sitting on the bed beside me.

"So if I hadn't gone through all of that," I pause to cough, "You would do what it looks like? You would go running back to her no matter how bad she hurt you?"