Cherish || grayson dolan

fifty two

New Jersey weather is finally starting to warm up. It's mid April now and we haven't seen snow in almost three weeks. I can finally start wearing outfits that don't need a jacket with it.

After getting out of the shower, I pick out my outfit consisting of jeans with rips down the leg and an off the shoulder top. I pull my hair into a loose pony tail and decided I wouldn't be needing make up today.

I walk downstairs to find Ethan and Emercyn cuddling on the couch. They were laughing and I guess they didn't hear me so I walk up to them and scream in their faces.

"What the hell!" They say at the same time. I laugh to myself and walk into the kitchen to grab some water. My phone buzzes in my back pocket.

I get a text from an unknown number and hesitate whether or not to look at it. My stomach began to churn at the thought it could be Cole, but that's when I remember, he is in prison now.

I swipe right and unlock my phone. It goes straight to the message and I feel my eyes go wide as I read it.

Unknown- Hayden I'm sure you're wondering who this is. You're thinking it's Cole right? But how is that possible... now who am I? and how do I know about Cole? Everyone knows about Cole now since you cheated on Grayson with him remember? You guys say it was a lie.. but was it really? It crazy how much your life can be ruined due to the internet. Break up with Grayson or both of your lives will become a living hell and I know you don't want that. :)

xoxo- Julia

I place my phone on the counter and pick it back up hoping what I saw wasn't real. How the hell does she know that much info on Cole? She must know he is locked away because she knows it's not possible that he could message me.

I walk out of the kitchen and into the living room to talk to Ethan. They aren't in the living room anymore so I walk upstairs to try and find them. As I near Emercyn's room, I hear a squeaking noise and note that it's probably not a good idea to enter.

I walk into my room and text Grayson.

Me- Gray... we need to talk. It's important. Can I come over?
Baby- Of course. I just got out of the shower but yes come over. Is everything alright?
Me- Not at all. Be over in five.

I put on my shoes and grab my keys before walking downstairs. I write a note on for the two love bird up stairs and let them known what I am doing.

Going to see Gray.
If you need anything call me
but i doubt you will seeing as
the two of you are quite occupied.
love you both
xoxo- H

I walk out the front door and lock it on my way out. I get into one of the cars and drive over to the Dolan household. When I walk up to the front step the door opens immediately.

Grayson leans down and kisses my lips before pulling me inside, shutting the door behind us.

"Is anyone home?"

"Just me why?"

I turn towards him and pull out my phone. I pull up the message from Julia and hand it to him. I watch his expression as he reads over it.

"Grayson what do we do?" I ask.

"I don't know, H. I mean this is crazy! She is crazy." He says frustratedly, tugging on his hair. I walk over to him and cup his face.

"Calm down, G. She hasn't done anything yet."

"That we know of and if we don't do what she says, she will. I can't let her destroy you too." I pull away and look at him. I furrow my brows at him and shake my head, feeling tears form in my eyes.

"You're not seriously thinking about actually doing what she says.." I start and he walks closer to me but I hold up my hand. "If it's not Cole trying to ruin us, it's her. Grayson we can't let her have this much control on our relationship. On how you live your life." I tell him.

"You don't get it, Hayden. She will not only do everything she can to ruin me but to ruin you too and I can't let her do that. If it wasn't for me, none of this would be happening. If I weren't such a dumbass back then, she wouldn't be trying to get revenge." He explains to me. He cups my face and turns my head to look at him. I don't want to, but I of course cave in.

"I love you so much. I love you more than I ever loved her. I love you more than I have ever loved anyone, baby. You mean the world to me and I can not express how lucky I am to have you and to be loved by you." He wipes his thumb over my cheek slowly and I bite my lip afraid of whats to come next.

"I love you so much, that I couldn't bare to see anything happen to you. I can't live with myself if she does something to hurt you because of me. I don't want her to have this control over me. Over us. But if this is what is going to protect us. to protect you, we have to." He closes his eyes and I pull away from him. He looks hurt.

"No. I don't care what she says Grayson. Let her ruin me. But do not let her ruin us. This isn't her relationship this ours. She doesn't get to call the shots and tell us when we are over. Grayson I can't do this. I can't not be with you." He stares back at me with glossy eyes and he too feels the pain that is taking over me.

"Hayden, calm down." He whispers.

"No. You don't get to tell me to calm down after just telling me we have to end things because your ex lover told us too. This is fucked up Grayson." I tell him through gritted teeth. I am more mad now than I am upset.

"I know it is. And I promise once we figure this all out on how to get her to back off, I'll make it up to you." He pleads.

"You don't get it do you? I don't want you to make it up to me. I don't want anything other than to be able to be with you. To laugh with you and to kiss you. Do you honestly think if we end this right now because she said so, that we can be friends? You think she will be okay with at least that? Absolutely not. She wants you and if she even thinks I am in the way she will still threaten." I sit on the couch in their living room and he sits across from me.

"Can't we at least say we broke up but don't actually end things? We just wont be seen in public together." I suggest, whispering more then talking.

"We could try. I just feel like she will be angry if she finds out." He says.

"It's worth trying. I just, with everything I have been through I can't lose you too." I say, pulling my knees to my chest.

I sink into the couch and feel like I'm losing my breath from how worked up I am. I feel weak and scared of what she will do and what will happen between Grayson and I.

"Grayson, I'm not doing this to protect me. But to protect your image. I love you." I look over at him and he stands up, walking over to me. He sits on the couch and pulls me to him.

"You mean the world to me Hayden." He kisses the top of my head. "We will figure something out. I promise."

I sure hope so.