It Was Always You | l.r.h

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2nd December 2017

A P R I L

"Bryana," I said, catching her attention, "there's something I need to tell you."

Bryana, who I met nearly two years ago now, and I were sat in her apartment, drinking hot chocolate and watching Peaky Blinders, which we'd both recently got obsessed with. We were planning on going on a walk, but the autumn weather changed and it started to rain heavily.

To say things have change a lot, would be an understatement. Everything had changed. I graduated sixth form, became a model, moved to L.A, met some of my best friends and I got engaged to Cody. (Which I'm still not over now).

He proposed to me when I hit 10 million followers on Instagram, which was four months ago now. I'm so happy in life right now and what I'm about to tell Bryana is life changing.

Things hadn't just changed for me either. 5SOS grew so much and so fast in two and a half years. They became one of the biggest bands that no one ever heard of. They had made music that nearly everyone in the world knew the words to and were singing. They sold out the majority of their first headlining world tour. They also hit puberty pretty hard too.

Sahara now has her own swimwear range, which Bryana and I have modelled for the pictures on her website. All three of us are pretty close. They're both my best friends and I would have never thought I'd be in this situation. I guess things got worse before they got better.

Luke still sent me letters. They weren't like they used to be, they're more songs he wrote about me or to me. Induing a song form Sounds Good Feels Good, it's called Story Of Another Us. He also sent me a letter the other week of a song they're realising soon called Want You Back. I keep them in the bottom of my bedside table. It's not that I don't like Cody knowing about them, it's just I'd prefer him to not see them or read them.

Fans of both the band and myself have questioned why there's no photos of Luke and I together or why we're never seen together. We both agreed when the band became big, that we wouldn't say anything and ignore the questions.

I'm still close to Calum, he actually lives in the apartment two doors down from Cody and I. Calum hasn't really met anyone yet. I keep telling him that he will soon and he'll never let them go. I still tell Calum a lot of things that I don't tell my brother or parents. I've always been close to Calum and I think we always will be close.

As for Michael, well he's still one of my best friends. We like to have our pizza and DVD nights quite often. I also help him dye his hair every month. Talking about hair, I dyed my hair a cotton pink colour about a month ago and it's growing on me. I lost a bet to Michael and my consequence was to dye my hair, but it's starting to fade pretty quickly.

The bet was that he wouldn't be able to finish a whole 12 inch pizza in five minutes. I thought it would be impossible, but no he did it with only a few seconds to spare. whereas I hadn't even ate half.

And Ashton, well he also feels like a bother to me. He helps Luke and I dealing with the fans asking questions constantly. He also sometimes joins in with Michael and I's pizza nights. He also hooked up a few time with Bryana, but they both claim that they have no feelings for each other. But the rest of the band, Sahara, Cody and I can tell they have feelings for each other, but haven't admitted it to each other, never mind themselves.