Mystic. [Old]

[Backstory] Chapter 34:

-I think Jordyn reads this while I sleep. Maybe... I actually don't really mind. I just hope she's aware that this is all in the past.

-I've been considering cutting my hair as well over the week, just for a bit. I know this vessel will grow it back out.

-Turns out I gotta accept that I have freckles. Whether I'm a shadow or not. Not sparkles.

-I was in denial for a while. For too long actually. Gotta accept that my team is my family.

-Abnormals is the name of our team.

Have I seen Hell? No. Not yet at least, I hope I'm not an angel cast into that. Heaven? No idea. If I have been there, I don't remember anything. (Well I would have had to come from Heaven duh. Everyone technically was. If you're an angel of course.) 

As an angel it's weird. I can turn into different forms. But I don't think I am supposed to do that. I have researched that some angels have turned into actual animals or something to that affect. Maybe I could be part demon too? Demon angel? Nah. That has a bad ring to it. I'm gonna stay with broken angel. I heard that angels can lose control. Even become bad. Something involving a thing called Purgatory. 

I believe I could maybe have a monster or bad side to me. Don't most angels have a breaking point? 

If I am immortal. That means I can't die.

Which means the rest of my team can.

Jordyn.

Derek.

Tori.

They can all die. And I won't age. I will just watch them grow older.

God dammit.

The thought of that makes me want to cry.

Maybe I could see them in Heaven? Visit them? Actually no. They could get cast into Hell. I could bring them back out. Keep 'em away from Lucifer and demons. Of course, that would mean becoming a better angel, fixing myself, becoming wiser. But at the moment I believe I am 20. Or so it will forever look that way. 

I won't let anyone die.

Speaking of dying, in the lab, everyone was sometimes afraid of me. All I had to do is touch someone and they would fall to the ground.

Did I kill them?

I never did find out. I was pulled away quickly.

How come I could touch Mitchell and he was still fine?

What if he was a demon.

What are signs of demons?

Black eyes, dark magic, signs of hell.

He didn't have any signs of those. Maybe he was part demon, or a special kind.

But he's dead now. So I won't find out. He's dead physically at least. I hope he doesn't return. I don't want him attempting to have sex with me again.

People assume I'm a demon at times.

Black eyes? No I got really dark brown eyes.

Strong? Ability to morph? I guess it could be signs that I am a demon.

I don't possess people, unless we agreed on it. I don't think angels can do that anyway.

I got broken, crippled wings. And can only be seen when needed, or when I want.

I guess I'm scary sometimes. So I could seem like a demon.