kiss marry kill | g.d

chapter seven

Blake answered, groaning as he looked at the camera.
" I need to talk to you " I said, which made his head shoot up.
" okay I'm sorry " he sighed, and I furrowed my eyebrows.
" I shouldn't have used all of your lipstick and stuff for that video... " He said, and I gasped.
" you did what?!? " I yelled, and he placed his hand over his mouth.
" oh shit... that's not what you were going to say were you? " He said quietly, and I shook my head.
Oh well, he's done it now.
" just come over in 10, I don't even know if I want to go to the beach anymore... just come and bring movies " I replied, and he gave me a confused look before nodding and hanging up.
I need to tell him, and most importantly, I think I need to admit it to myself.

" what's up? " Blake asked as I opened the front door, sitting back on the sofa after.
I didn't reply, instead I sat silently and he sat beside me.
" you look stressed " he said, and I gave him the ' no shit ' look.
He sighed, placing his hand on my back and rubbing it lightly for comfort.
" just tell me, Lin " He whispered, and I looked into his eyes deeply.
" you were right... " I said quietly, and he didn't say anything.
" I think I like him, and I know you want to say I told you so, so just do it " I cried, the tears brimming in my eyes as he pulled me into his arms.
" I'm not going too " he said, playing with my hair.
I looked up, extremely confused as to why he didn't want too. That's what he wanted at first, to prove me wrong.
" Why're you crying? " He asked with a light laugh.
" because I think I like someone who would never like me back, and he considers me a friend... I've been friend zoned, Blake " I sighed, and he held his hand out.
" what? " I asked, and he motioned for my phone.
" you're not going to read my messages, that's stupid " I said, and he shook his head.
" I wasn't going too, I was just going to prove how he might like you back " He wiggled his brows, and my eyes instantly met his when he said that.
I don't know why I'm getting my hopes up, it's useless.
" has he ever said something about you that made you confused? Or done something that made you wonder what he meant? " He asked, and I looked at the ground while trying to think.
I thought a little longer, until a few different things came to mind.
" a couple " I muttered, and he waited.
" he asked if you were my boyfriend once, and when I said no he said good... I asked him why he said that, and he told me it was nothing " I shrugged, not knowing how it would help.
" see, he wanted to know if you had a boyfriend, and felt relieved when you didn't because he likes you " Blake giggled, and I shook my head.
" no, friends just want to know if their friends are single " I said, not knowing what I was saying to be honest.

He sighed, turning around so he could properly face me.
" anything else? " he asked, and I instantly got nervous.
I didn't know whether to tell him about the FaceTime moment, since it was kind of awkward. I kept it to myself and shook my head, and Blake smiled.
" well I think he likes you, whether there is more or not " Blake laughed.
I shrugged, knowing deep down that he would never like me.

Blake pulled out a bag, full of our favourite movies. I smiled as he did so, and he noticed and smiled too. He grabbed my laptop, opening it and inserting the disc for up.
I always cry at this movie, but I feel like a good cry could make me feel better.

Right now I just feel useless, like no matter how hard I try I'll never be good enough. I'm stuck in a situation where I'm almost positive the person I like doesn't like me back, and I don't know what to do about that... I'm not good enough for him, and I never will be.

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A/N- this makes me sad ngl