MYSTIC MESSENGER: ONE SHOTS/IMAGINES

17. SAERAN X READER "TRY"

Saeran deserves to be happy …
So this one is for him and all the people who believes he deserves a happy story.

Note: Y/N = Your Name

The night was young and you were there inside Luciel’s car that Saeran borrowed.

Silence was your companion since Saeran doesn’t want to say anything. It seems that he refused to talk making the atmosphere a little bit awkward. You silently watched the night sky as you both traverse the road back to Luciel’s home.

I guess it was your fault why Saeran is behaving that way. You were the one who invited him to your family dinner. You know that he didn’t want to go but you were so persistent.

You took a deep breath.

Is he mad? You asked yourself worriedly.

The question kept on playing on your mind yet you couldn’t find the answer.

Of course he is mad! It was your fault. You scolded yourself

Your brows furrowed when you realized that Saeran has took a turn deep into the woods.

You worriedly looked at him and all you can see was seriousness in his eyes.

He definitely is mad. You said at the back of your mind.

It took almost an hour when he finally stopped. The rough road led you both to a peaceful meadow.

You instantly forgot the thing that has been bothering your mind.

You immediately took off your seatbelt and out of the car to have a clear view of the place.

You were in awe as you saw how the moon reflects at the lake. Fireflies magically flew everywhere. It feels so enchanting.

You were out of breath as the beauty of the night take your mind into some enchanting place.

“Its beautiful right?” it was Saeran’s voice.

You nodded in agreement.

“This is amazing; I didn’t know there is such a place.” You said. Your eyes glisten in amusement.

Saeran smiled and took your arm. You were stunned. This is the first time you saw him smiled. It was nice.

He took you to a huge rock near the lake. There you both sat looking at the starry night.

“I’m sorry.”  He then said while looking at the night sky.

Another first. He is not the kind of person who would go apologetic at things he’s doing, nor go smiling at things like this.

This must be the true Saeran whose been hiding deep down his dark and icy self.

“No.” You answered. “I should be the one who’s sorry… I insisted on bringing you to my family dinner.” Your voice was full of guilt.

“No… I really am sorry for acting so harsh in front of your parents… now, they hate me so much.” Saeran sighed.

"Of course they'd be cautious since I looked like a criminal... and even acted like one." He sighed again.

You were out of words.

This is not the cold Saeran you used to know. This is a completely different person.

“You seem to be a different person…” You said softly.

He turned to stare at you. His eyes are pleading.

“I was afraid… no… I’ve been afraid.” He said almost a whisper.

“I was afraid you’d leave me… so I’m trying to change myself … just for you.” he said. His voice held with so much sincerity in it.

“But, you don’t have to change yourself just to please me or anyone else, just be you...” You said.

“If you ever leave me… I won’t be able to bare the pain. I’ve been through too much pain in my whole life… but you leaving me will only be the reason of my death.” He started.

“I’ve always been so insecure with my brother… I’m always afraid that you’d choose him over me.”

“And that insecurities suddenly piled up when I met your parents…”

Your heart was wringing in pain. This guy has been guarding his pain all along.

“If you walk away… just like how your parents want you away from me…”

He stopped for a moment while staring deep into your eyes.

“I won’t be able to handle the pain… no religion that could ever save me from too much suffering, no matter how long my knees are on the floor... so please keep in mind all the sacrifices I’m making and are willing to give up just to have you beside me.”

“There will be no sunlight if I lose you baby… there will be no clear sky if I lose you Y/N…”

You took his arm and softly put it on your cheeks, feeling the roughness of his palm.

“The truth is…” You said while staring at his watery eyes.

“You’ll never be my mother’s favorite… my Daddy can’t even look you in the eyes.” You started, you saw pain in his eyes.

“If I were in their shoes, I’d be saying the same thing… saying ‘there goes my little girl walking with that troublesome guy’.” you continued.

You saw how the tears of pain started to fall from his face. His was in so much pain, but he didn’t say a single word. If it was an ordinary day, he would have already been mad. But, tonight he didn’t utter a word. Yet, his tears are enough to tell you how much he is grieving with the possibility that you might leave him.

“But, you know what? They’re just afraid of something they don’t understand. Saeran, watch me change my family's minds.”

There was an instant change in his aura. It was if he couldn’t what he was hearing from you.

“For you, I’ll try… I’ll pick up your broker heart’s pieces until I’m bleeding if that’s the only way to make you mine.”

“Just as you said earlier…”

“There will be no sunlight or clear sky if I lose you…”

“Just like the clouds, my eyes will do the same… if you walk away… everyday it will rain.”

You said smiling reassuring him how much you feel for him.

“You will not leave me?” He asked with a glint of brightness in his face.

You smiled and nodded.

“You won’t say goodbye even if your parents wanted to?” he asked again like a child asking  for a gift.

“Yes… I will never go away.”

“We will try to fix this mess, yeah?” he asked again, now with a smile on his lips.

“Yes, yes, yes.” You chuckled.

“Thank goodness!”He said as he hugged you tightly.

You will do everything to make this man happy. He has gone through a lot. He deserves to be happy at least.

~end

Song reference: “It Will Rain” by Bruno Mars

But, I was listening to Kurt Hugo Schnieder, Max Schnieder and Olivia Noelle’ Cover