MYSTIC MESSENGER: ONE SHOTS/IMAGINES

19. SAERAN ~ "I HATE HER"

The moon is shining unto the world, the birds is already in their nests ready for sleep; crickets were singing its melody in the calm night; and fireflies float like dancing stars beside the lake.

Tranquility at its finest; everything is serene and calm except for my thoughts. It was a pandemonium.

I have been brawling with this things people called “emotions”. My stuff is quite rough that I’m having a hard time knowing what I really feel.

Questions always pop up from nowhere…

“Was it wrong to ask for a miracle?”

“Is there even a miracle?”

“Was it wrong to try and live again?”

“What is wrong with me?”

“Why am I even asking this stuff?”

I feel so confused.

“Why am I even confused?”

I must be crazy.

Lately, I feel like walking on a thin ice; like everything seems to fall apart with just one wrong step. And to my dismay, whenever I am having a hard time trying to keep my inner monsters in the cages of this stone-cold heart, she was there.

She was silently staring at me. Her curious eyes were like knives that can easily pierce right through the invisible wall I have built for so many years.

What’s with her that she could make me feel uncomfortable without exerting much effort?

She’s a nobody to be exact.

I have been through hell and back so many times, and nobody can touch my weak spot that easily.

I have even seen so many criminals; some have died in my hands; some have lived a miserable life… not a single soul can shake my facade… and yet this girl… this infuriating girl makes me go crazy just by staring at me.

She makes me mad… she makes me confused... she makes me…

She makes me crazy than I already am. She makes my heart crazy…

Screw you infuriating … irritating… annoying… girl.

But I must admit she has wonderful eyes…

No! Stop thinking about that ‘not so good-looking girl’.

I took a deep breathe… here she goes again... she makes me crazy even she’s not here right now. I should go see a doctor soon.

I stared at the moon’s reflection on the lake as if I could find answers from its glowing image on the water.

I realized that staring blankly on random things makes my guard goes down the drain.

The image of her smiling face always crept on those moments when my mind is blank.

Sometimes I imagined her walking slowly towards me in slow motion. Sometimes I could see her talking about random things while leaning on my shoulder.

My mind was playing tricks on me, and it made my heart goes wild.

Another deep breathe to calm myself.

I was in my deep thoughts when I heard a rustling sound. I took my gun and cautiously went to where the sound was coming from.

Must be a spy sent by those people against me… must be from an enemy agency.

I am ready to shoot whoever it is on the other side of the bushes… but i found myself surprised at the person behind that bunch of leaves.

It was Y/N.