Ruin S.M

Chapter 5

~5 days later

Liv's Pov
It's been five days since I've talked to Shawn and the boys.
The only one I'm talking to is Matt.
If he wants to leave then let him leave.
I just came from a long day of school to see Shawn in the kitchen.

"Hey"
Not looking at him I grabbed a water bottle and sat by the dining table.
"Are you going to ignore me?" he asked.
"I don't know what do you think?" I replied raising my voice.

"I know you're upset and all but don't you think you're overreacting?" he raised his voice.
"Me overreacting why not you're leaving me" I raised my voice so I'm louder than him.

"You are so selfish right now I thought you're my friend but I'm leaving and I won't stay" he shouted.
"I don't care"
I walked into my room.

Quickly I locked the door and walked into the bathroom.
I'm going to use the blade for the first time in forever.
Three rows not more and not less this is what I deserve.

One
Two
Three

Blood was running down my wrist.
It feels good but i don't want to overreact and die.
Carefully I draw my sleeve up and clean my bathroom.

No one will know not even Matt.
I washed my face and looked for Shawn.
I sprinted into his room and knocked on his door.
He opened the door and looked down at me.

"I'm sorry I was selfish" I mumbled looking down.
"I know you are"
"So did you pack everything?" I asked.
"Yeah" he whispered sadly.
He's leaving tomorrow already and I only have today with him.

"Let's go to the beach" I said.
He nodded and I went to my room to change into a swimsuit.
Stupid me forgot that I had cut my self not quite long ago.
The marks were really noticeable.
I don't own makeup so I walked into Jack G's room to get Madison's makeup.

Jack G and Madison are here for a week to say bye to Shawn.
"Hey Madison can you please give me your foundation?" I asked as polite as possible so she'd give it to me.
"Yeah sure it's there" she pointed to her desk.

I thanked her and ran into my room to hide my scar.
Knowing that I won't enter the water I walked downstairs with all my stuff.
Shawn was ready and we walked to the beach.

******

"Liv let's go swimming" he said.
"Nah it's better here in the dry land"
"Come on"
Before i could say something Shawn carried my body into the water.
"Ughh"

My hands touched the water and then his face.
We kept on swimming if it's even swimming because we acted like kids under water.
My body was so tired why do I always get tired after swimming.

"Hey Shawn let's go"
We walked to our stuff and had a little conversation.
Lucky and clumsy me had to trip and fall on someone.
I raised my head to face who I fell on.
"Jesus Liv wtf ?" he questioned.
"Huh hey Manu"
Shawn helped me up and I thanked him.

"I'll see you tomorrow" I said
"Call me"
"I don't have your number"
A little smirk was on his face.
Not caring I walked to my things and wore my dress and a light coat to cover my scars.

******

"Hey Shawn"
"Yeah"
"I'm taking this"
I showed him a maroon Vans sweatshirt I took from his wardrobe.
"Go ahead"
"Thank you"

I love sweatshirts that belong to boys they're so big and his cologne was so strong.
"When you're back you'll see me wearing your sweatshirt"

"I'll be happy"
"So shawnie boi let's down to the others"
We walked downstairs and Shawn was tackled by the boys and Mahogany.