Just Friends?

Chapter 30

Jamie

As Kookie falls asleep facing the other way I stand up and go to the bathroom. I sit in the bathroom and I decide to post something on twitter on my account. 

Madly in love with someone who is super special to me. I love you @kookiemonster 

(Ik it's not his real user name but whatever)

I post it and then sit on the bathroom floor. I wash my face. I see my stomach with marks from someone who loves me. I then think back to Jimin who touched me it felt like he loved me then but, the punch hurting my face. The pain it brought with it. The hate I felt in that one punch was enough to say all of it was fake. The pain in it after was a rip of the heart. I get light head thinking about it. He didn't love me. He took my virginity. It felt real. But now I feel gross even touching him. Sure he was sweet at first but, the way he treated me was something else I can't put a finger on it.

I have tears fall down my face. I sigh and wash my face again. I sit in the middle of the room checking how people are reacting to my tweet.

Wow she moved on fast from Jimin what does she think she is? Someone pretty?

Wait she broke Jimin's heart. How dare she. Look how many would love to date him and she just gives up on him. Shame I did like her.

Wow what a slut I mean Kookie doesn't deserve her. She is such a big piece of shit who moves to different guys.

I close my phone and then my phone dings. Can't sleep?-Yoongi

How you know I was up? -Jamie

Heard you flush. Everything okay?-Yoongi

Yeah thank you Yoongi- Jamie

Alright sleep well -Yoongi.

I don't bother to message back I close my phone and another text. I check my phone again.

Honey I see all the hate everything okay?-Mom

My tears fall down my face. I put some clothes on. Then step outside.

Can I call you?- Jamie

I then hit call and she picks up after one ring. "Hi baby girl." I hear her voice and break down into tears. "Baby don't cry. I know all this hate can get bad but, are you happy?" She asks me. I wipe my eyes and sigh. "I am but, the thoughts of those hateful comments they don't know what Jimin did and I can't tell you. I don't want you to worry. I am being safe but, like I don't know. Jimin isn't Jungkook." I say into the phone.  "I know. No guy is the same. Jungkook is different from the rest of the boys. I know it is something you don't want to think about but, it's true. I love you baby. As long as Jungkook keeps you happy and safe I am happy for you." My mom says. "He does.  I love him. Support him. Do anything for him." I say and she sighs. "Your pictures that you took are beautiful baby." She says and I nod even though she can't see it.  I nod. "I miss you so much. When are you coming here to visit?" I ask her and she groans. "Work is really tough baby. I'll try and figure something out in the next month for you okay?" She asks me and I hear her move. "Yeah okay." I say and then wipe my tears from my face. "Daddy says hi baby. We will visit you soon okay? Get to see the boys. I know you miss us. Your little sister misses you too." My mom says. I smile hearing my little sister not so little anymore. She is a good 14 year old.  "Want to say hi Jasmine?" My mom asks her. I laugh a little. "Hi Jamie." She says and I smile.  Her probably getting so tall. So big. "Hi Jazzy how is school? Have any guy friends?" I ask and she laughs a little. "No Jamie. I don't. Boys are not cool they umm yeah." She says. I sigh knowing what she means. I just want to talk with her. She is so confused. "If we get to see each other I want to have a good talk with you to catch up on everything." I say and I hear her laugh a little. "Yeah me too. I love you Jay. You should get some sleep. Don't listen to those haters okay? I know what you are like. I love you." She says and I smile. "I love you to Jazzy. I'll see you soon." I say and she hands the phone back to mom. God I fucking miss my family. "Honey your sister is right try and get some sleep. I love you baby. I will talk later okay? Stay safe." She says and I nod. And then say goodbye and love you. Then the phone goes dead. I put my phone down and break into tears.

I lay on the floor. Hurting and in pain. I hear a door open and I sit up. I hear someone sit down. "You okay?" I hear a voice I wish I didn't have in my mind. "Yeah I'll leave." I say and then stand up. He touches my hand. "Jimin your the last person I wanna talk to. Okay?" I say and then rip my hand out of his. I open the door quietly. I close it lock it and then lock the other door and I lay in the bed as close as I can to the edge. I hold the pillow close to my chest and cry as quiet as I can to get it all out but, not to wake Kookie up. I whimper out and I hear the movement of the bed arms around me pulling me closer. "Baby." He whispers into my neck kissing it lightly.  I break into tears a little more. As I hate myself for even being alive.