Just Friends?

Chapter 41

Jamie

As I lay in the bed. Kookie beside me on the chair. Then Jasmine right beside me sleeping. I rub my stomach. "I need you to be okay." I say to my stomach lightly. I feel Kookie stir underneath my hand. The other boys sleeping in room. The chairs,  filled one by one. 6 chairs filled.  With the people who have been there since day one. I can't believe I have a kid in my body. Growing but, a 50% chance of living. Like I will still have to have it but, it either could be dead, or alive when it is born. I need it too be alive. I hate my body. Is it cause I don't eat right? Or is it because I don't do everything right with my body. I rub my face and let go of Kookie's hand. I need to go for a walk. "Jimin." I call out quietly. He stirs. "Jimin." I call again he slowly opens his eyes and shoots up when he sees me awake he walks over to me. "Are you okay?" He asks.  I nod and then look at Jasmine. "Jamie?" Kookie asks. "Mhhm I just need to sit up." I say to him and then slowly move. "Can you take Jas?" I ask Kookie. He nods and then Jimin moves her to Kookie. He sits down so that she can lay on him more. She cuddles up to him. "What do you need?" Jimin asks me quietly. "I need to walk. I need someone to come with just not Kookie." I say to him. "Okay." He says and then helps me down on the ground. He takes my arm and we walk out the door. My little socks on. "Can I talk to you for a bit?" I ask him. I look ahead and then back. "Yeah of course.  What's up?" He asks me. "Is it normal for not wanting a kid?" I ask and he looks at me. "Yeah of course it is. You are still young but, I think you will be a great mother and Kookie will be a great dad." Jimin says. "I am scared." I say and touch my stomach. "For having it and it not being...." I start to say. "For it not living. I know we all are Jay I know it is going be a tough time for all of us. But I know if you keep healthy and keep the baby healthy everything will be fine. Us boys will make sure of it. Food all the time. Water everyday. 8 glasses." Jimin says. I look down. "Thank you." I say and then he touches my stomach. "I can't wait to see a mini Kookie and you. I mean it will be a trouble maker." Jimin says to me. I laugh and push him a little. "I mean yeah but, it's going to be so talented. Know how to sing, dance, act. Wow." I say and then look down at Jimin touching my stomach. "I couldn't be happier for you. It's going to be beautiful." Jimin says and touches my cheek.  I smile. "What do you want it to be?" I ask him. "I mean a girl." He says. I nod. "Whatever it is I have a good name for it that once it's born then I will tell you." I say he groans. "No I want to know." Jimin says and pouts. "You will know in 7 and a half months." I say to him. He smiles. "I am so excited." He says. "Then maybe we can show ARMY they will love the baby. They will be happy for you two." Jimin says. Right. ARMY. Do they like me now? That Kookie and I have been together for a while. He walks me a little further and then helps me back.  I sit on the bed. He helps me lay down again.  He slowly goes back to his seat.  "Jimin." I say and he turns around waiting for me to say something. "Thank you." I say he smiles and then he sits back down. I slowly doze off to the sounds of all boys and my little Jasmine sleeping.

"Baby." I hear someone say and kiss my hand. I slowly open my eyes. "Mhhm." I say knowing it's Kookie. "They are letting us go." Kookie says. "Mhhm." I say and then I sit up with help. The boys already up. Jasmine in Jimin arms sleeping still.

"Okay." I say and slowly stand up and then walk out.  They give me a wheelchair. I sit down and Kookie pushes me. We get out and then the bus is there. I hear people screaming. I panic and look over. "Kookie! BTS!" Someone yells. The security keeping them away while we get on. He folds up the chair and the bus starts. I lay down Jasmine slowly waking up. "What is going on?" She asks still in Jimins arms. "It's okay we are going home now." Jimin says to her and she puts her head back down. I cuddle up to Kookie. The boys handing me water. I groan and then I finish a glass of water. The hand me another one. I don't have to finish it now. I close my eyes and listen to the boys chatting with one another. "Kookie. Do you trust me to name the baby. I want to keep it a suprise." I say and he looks at me and moves the hair out of my face.  "Yeah baby I trust you. I know you will name it good." He says and kisses my forehead. I rest my head on his chest as he puts his arm around me rubbing my side as I doze off once more. I feel the I love yous in my ear as I fall asleep the music playing the boys laughing.  What else could I ask for. A beautiful boyfriend.  My sister with me and BTS has my back 24/7. Depression slowly is moving away from me. Yet it will always be there I don't think about other shit as much.