Meinhard's Pov.
They try to calm my crying now that they know about my love for Chris. For some reason I don't believe that he loves me too. He can love god knows who. He can even be straight, and then there is me, in love and hoping that he would acknowledge my feelings for him, but at the same time hoping that he never finds out about my love. I like to watch him, he is so god damn hot. And beautiful. I remember when I fell in love with Achim, how hard I tried for him to acknowledge me. I think I made a fool out of myself then. I don't want to do it again. Once is just enough in my life. They manage to calm me down with few minutes, thank god. Crying makes my head hurt so I usually avoid crying because of that. Now that I have cried maybe I can think little bit clearer about the heartbreaking situation.
"Why don't you go at the thing the same way you did with me?"
I send him a look that clearly classifies him as an idiot.
"I made a fool out of myself then, I can't do that again."
He shrugs before telling me that I looked more like a cutie than like a fool. Which by the way earns him a playfully jealous glare from Tilo. They are impossible. I'll take my middle finger to anyones face who dares to say that those two aren't so madly in love that they have eyes for no one else but themselves. Achim is like a powerless puppy when Tilo asks him something.
"Well then you could just be yourself and try to spend more time with him."
I have to agree that Tilo has his points set straight with that sentence, doesn't matter that he himself is not as straight as those points that he has made tonight. my own thoughts provide me with a small smile. I hug them both somewhat awkward, I still am not one hundred points an hug person, but I am not as afraid as I was when we first met with Chris for that song work. Which by the way is going really well as we are almost finished. I fear that moment the song gets released. I'm afraid that I will not be welcomed here anymore. Hopefully I can at least visit them here and not become a stranger.
With thanking both of my life savers again I leave them to do things they want, be it personal or not. I go for my room, staring at the ground as I know the way there by heart already. Not thinking for once that I am not alone in the manor. I walk into Chris so hard that the impact sends me into falling. But before the floor punishes my bum with its hardness, Chris's strong arms wrap around my waist, effectively stopping my fall. Our eyes lock when I look up to him. Maybe I dream it, but he starts leaning in.
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15.08.2017
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Ich Liebe Dich.
FanfictionJeremias Meinhard, a man afraid of everyone, is asked to make a song with a famous band. Can he make it? What if the ghosts from his past are coming to get him? Will get through this alive?
