Mistake

Flashbacks

What have I done to deserve this? I question myself. I sat on my bed and closed my eyes. It had felt like I had been lying in my bed for at least an hour then it had all gone to darkness. I began to feel so relaxed and then that darkness turned into pain and sorrow. I sighed to myself, "Here we go again," For the third night this week I have to go through flashbacks on what happened.

The pain and sorrow began to disappear and with every second that went by colour started to reappear. Before I knew it, I was back in the same position I was in on Sunday. My hair was still straight and swept to one side. Not only that but I was wearing the same jeans and shirt. My boyfriend stood in front of me just staring me in the eye. I asked him if he was ok and he just ignored me. Awful scenarios came in and out of my head causing me to panic. What is he's found someone else? What if I've done something wrong? Maybe I've upset him. My legs began to shake. Grow up Eva. I mean seriously, your 16 you need to act your age. I look back at Theo. I fake a smile and he just takes a deep breath in and gulps. He opens his mouth and finally breaks the silence. His words stabbed me like daggers. It hurts hearing him say that. It always has and it always will. I was broken. I still am. One sentence had affected me the most. One sentence, nine words was like a struck of lightening. Like a message telling me to shatter into tiny pieces of glass. "All that has happened between us was a mistake!" His words echoed around my head. Did he really think that? He sounded so confident. He was so bold on what he had said that it had felt like there was no way he could have been wrong. Maybe he is right. Maybe I'm just over thinking it? I can't look at him the same way I used to anymore. Whenever I see him all I can see and remember is that same place, that exact sentence, those exact nine words. All I can think about is how those words made me and still make me feel weak and hopeless. That very sentence had caused my heart to break into pieces and cause my world around me to crumble at my feet. I can't believe I thought he loved me. How could I be so stupid?

My mum walked into the room and tapped my shoulder. My eyes opened almost immediately. I had completely forgotten about school. "Don't forget that you have school soon Eva," my mum notified. I nodded and soon enough she had left my bedroom. I rushed around and got ready. I looked in the mirror and I assumed I looked decent. I felt so hopeless till the fact that I had given up trying. I got to school and threw myself at Phoebe when she walked through those gates. I began to feel weak again as Theo walked past. He stared right into my eyes. He knew what was up. He ignored it though and carried on with his life. I dragged Phoebe to the bathroom and explained everything. Soon after repeating that sentence that I hated so much I burst out in tears. My legs began to feel like jelly. Before I knew it, I was on the floor. A loud thud echoed around the bathroom. Phoebe stood there in shock for at least five minutes. She grabbed my hands and pulled me onto my feet again. I thanked her and before I could fall again she grabbed me and sat me down. "Eva, don't worry about it. I mean if I'm honest you're stronger than this and besides I always told you that you can do better than him anyways." Phoebe comforted me. I stood up as the bell rang and I cleaned myself up quickly. I nodded to indicate she was right and we walked out the bathroom like nothing had happened.

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Hey guys,
So this is my new story obviously. I would just like to say, for those of you who have seen my story only missing the letter x I have deleted the story as I don't really like the story but I may end up re publishing the story another time. Hope you guys enjoy this story. 
-A xx