Mistake

Regret...

School ended and I was tired. I sat on my bed reflecting on what I have done. I sat in silence but a short while after I broke it. "IM A MONSTER!"I screamed at the top of my lungs. "What have I done! How could I be so stupid?" I sobbed. I kissed Donovan! I kissed my ex's best friend! How did I even think of doing that. If people saw me now and what I have done they would think I was a monster. Maybe even a devil. I picked up my phone and went onto Instagram. I scrolled through various posts and then onto people stories. I noticed a picture which stood out amongst the many others. I read the words the picture said. 'Her white wings are dirty. Her halo is cracked. She gets more and more evil The more she is attacked.' I stared out my window and began to think what mum would say. She used to always call me her 'little angel' but what is she going to call me now. I'm no longer the same person. They broke me and I guess now I'm a devil. I will be mum's 'little devil' instead. What have I done? I guess I was still hurt. I was pretending. I know I can fake a smile and I can pretend to be happy. I can do a lot of things but I cant pretend that I don't love Theo. I guess a break up is like a broken mirror. Its better to leave it than hurt yourself trying to pick up the pieces. I have to move on. I have to remember that I'm a good enough person to forgive you but not stupid enough to trust you again.

I sat at my desk with music on at a low volume. I fixed up my makeup and place my nightwear on my bed. I stood up from my chair to get a drink when there was a knock on the door. Who would be knocking at my door at this very moment. I walked up to the door as quietly as i could. I went onto my tip toes and looked the glass lens. It was Donovan. I turnt around to look into the mirror and made sure i looked alright. I opened the door and welcomed Donnie in. Why am i trying so hard to impress him? "Hey Donnie! Is everything ok?" I say giving him a welcoming hug. "Yeah! Yeah I'm ok how about you?" Donnie said in return. "Yeah I'm fine thank you, do you want anything to drink?" I asked. "No, no thank you. Can I... um... talk to you?" Donovan questioned nervously. "There's no need to ask, talk away!" I say politely. We both sat down and he began to talk. "I don't really know how to say it so I'm just going to say how it is! When you kissed me i was honestly shocked. I didnt think i would kiss you back but when i did i felt that there was something there. I dont think you will feel the same but... but i believe you deserve to know how i feel about you." He scratched his head as he was woried about my reply. What am i supposed to say to him. I like you too, I think i like you, im not really sure if i like you. This is driving me insane!! "Look Donnie, Is is ok if you can give me time to think about this because if im totaly honest i dont really know how i feel about you. I didnt expect myself to kiss you but you shocked me more when you kissed me back. I just need some time to think it all through. I really appreciate the fact that you told me how you feel about me." i said whilst my legs shook. I hope he doesnt take it personally. I basically said i dont like him. But the truth is i think i like him in that way however i want to make sure i do first. I dont want to upset him. When i kissed him it was strange but when he kissed me it felt right. It had felt that i had fallen for the wrong boy. I really dont know. "Is it ok if i give you an answer by the end of the day?" i asked him. He nodded and walked out the house. "I knew this was a bad idea!" he mumbled.
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Hey guys,
Sooooo, what do you think of Eva and Donovan? Do you think they will become a thing? Thank you all so much for 50+ reads! I appreciate it loads! Hope you enjoyed this chapter. Love you people.
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