Mistake

Get Out My Head

I sat down at my seat preparing for the lesson. Im so glad my english class doesnt have Theo or Phoebe in. Maybe that way i can take my mind of them. I sure hope so. My english teacher walked in with a smile on her face. "Ok then my lovely lot, i just thought i would let you know that i am very proud of every single one of you in my class. I read over your work from the past few lessons and i am so glad to say that we have finished our scheme of work so im going to let you practise some subjects for the next few lessons. However this is only till i recieve the knew work scheme. So enjoy the time while it lasts!" Mrs Thompson explained. "Today i want you to write a powerful piece of text which allows the reader to expeirence what the charecter or person is going through." I opened my book and grabbed my pen from my pencil case. Everyone stared into space for a minute or two thinking what to write about. I wrote and wrote as fast as i could. I looked over my passage i had written. It was all to do with how i was or have been feeling since the day of my breakup. I felt every single word i had wrote. No matter what it said i could always relate it back to me. It was strange. Everything i had wrote is what i have been told, felt or read of the internet. It was so long that it looked like a novel. The first paragraph read:

She was fragile just like a petal.One simple mistake can tear her apart. Once she was torn she couldnt forget. It was there forever much like a scar. One stupid mistake can change everything just like one lie can ruin a thousand truths. Have you ever been so sad that it physically hurt inside? I have and now I know that  nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the one person who you thought would never hurt you. Many people may think, "Yeah. She's smiling," But don't let that fool you. Look into her eyes. She's breaking inside. No one will ever understand how much it hurts. Like ice melts into rain sometimes love turns into pain. But little do they know that love is the reason why I am falling apart.

I sat down and stared at my book. Ideas ran all around my head. Then I realised what I was really doing. I was trying to forget them. But it hurts more to forget than to let it go. I thought about why I was doing it then I noticed I was hiding. Hiding my feelings. Hiding my thoughts. Hiding my true self. I was smiling just so I could stop the tears from falling. Why am I even trying to forget them. Its hard to forget someone who gave you so much to remember. I've made a big mistake. That big mistake I have made in my life is letting people stay in my life longer than they deserve. Trust is like an eraser. It gets smaller with every mistake you make. It amazes me how he can break my heart and my trust yet I still love him with every little broken piece of it. I'm tired of feeling this way. I'm tired of fighting. For once, I want to be fought for.
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