Mistake

Broken

I left the stalls quietly holding in my tears and anger. I ran to reception and told them I had to leave for an emergency. The receptionist nodded and continued to run towards the gate. I checked the time and knew my mum would be out. I ran all the way home and dodged everyone and everything which came across me. I unlocked the door and threw my bags and shoes on the floor. I ran up into my bedroom and burst out crying. "HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME?!" I cried. I decided that I was just going to stay home for the rest of the day. I will just tell everyone I was ill. I walked down the stairs again and grabbed a slice of cake and a tub of Ben and Jerry's Cookie Dough ice cream. I went back  upstairs and ate the food I had just brought up miserably. I picked up my photo album of my favourite people and resorted them. I picked up every picture of Theo and me and placed it in a pile and pictures of my 'Best Friend' and put them in another. I grabbed the two piles and made them into one. I walked outside with tears still dripping down my face. I walked up to the back of the garden where we burn all the paper. I put a chair by the fire place and started the fire. The fire started and I began  to throw in the pictures. With every picture I threw in I made sure I ripped it in half and I would say what I thought. How could they! Two of my favourite people! First Theo and now Phoebe. Tears continued to roll down my face. No matter how hard I tried I couldn't stop crying. I was heartbroken. It's all to much. There's no one to talk to anymore. I can't talk to Theo or Phoebe or mum. I hate keeping secrets from mum. I need to tell her soon. Maybe on Wednesday. I put out the fire and walked back towards the house. I checked the time to realise mum would be home soon. I put in my shoes and walked to my spot. I climbed up my tree and sat there. I looked around me. The nature began to heal my pain as it always does. Every time I sit in this tree I feel like someone different. Like a whole new person. I sat upon the tree and breathed in the air closing my eyes and listening to the birds singing. I began to relax. Most people say there houses are there safe place but for me it's different. This tree, this very tree I'm sitting in is my safe place. I feel like I'm in my own world here. It's like a drug. I can just sit down and forget all my problems. My thoughts still remain but only the positive ones. The best thing about my safe place is that no one comes here but me. I found this place because I got lost once and here I am now. I stayed at the tree until school had finished just incase. The school shouldn't contact my mum as I told them it was an emergency.
I climbed off of the tree slowly making sure I didn't fall. I took a slow walk back to the house almost as if I was walking home from school. It wasn't long until I was home. Mum sat at the kitchen table drinking a coffee as she worked through her paper work. "Hey darling you look tired," mum says to me with a smile."I only boiled the kettle like 10 seconds ago so you can make yourself a coffee if you want." Mum offered. "Thanks mum that's a good idea. Do you want me to help you with your paper work? I have nothing to do." I reply. "Sure, that would be lovely. Today's paperwork is about how different people react to different things all around the world. Like emotions and feelings. " mum began to explain. "Like love and hurt." I interrupt. "Yeah I guess," mum said slightly confused. It was almost like she knew what I was feeling. That she knew I was hiding something from her. I have to tell her soon!
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