Mistake

Epilogue

*Three Months Later*

Do you remember what life was like for me three months ago? I was alone. Everyone I was friends with, the people I loved had betrayed me. Do you remember me saying I was going to get my revenge? Get pay back? Well, I didn't do anything for it to be this way. It just happened. Karma got them. Because of that, I am much happier. Happier than ever I could say. Some new people joined our school just a month after everything. We all ended up being friends and here we are now. Nobody can stop us. We trust each other and tell everything to one another. Its like a new life. Did I mention I have a boyfriend now too? His name is Kol. Everything about him is perfect and he's always by my side. He doesn't use me like Theo used to.

If I was to compare my life from three months ago and now you will notice a huge difference. I used to have an act I had to stick to. I couldn't ever be late to school, do all my homework, know everything and most of all look perfect. Not to mention that I couldn't show my emotions very much. It was hard especially through all the heartbreaks, betrayals and fights. I am proud to say that has pretty much gone. I still do my homework and try my best not to be late because I don't want to fail but I no longer hide my emotions and I dress and style myself to how I would like and not how other people want me to dress. Within a small period of time I have changed a lot. I've let myself loose and there are no expectations of me. I'm certainly a new person.

For any of you that don't remember what happened three months ago I will tell you now. It all stared when Theo broke up with me. It was unexpected. There was one sentence that hurt me the most. This sentence was, "All that happened between us was a mistake!" I remember my heart was crushed. Crushed into tiny pieces that couldn't be fixed. I was heartbroken much like any other girl would be. I had flashbacks on that very moment when I was asleep and it haunted me. We had a lesson and we had to do a play on Romeo and Juliet. It turned out that I was Juliet and Theo was Romeo. Luckily we ran out of time before the kiss. I ran after Theo after this play and said I wanted to talk about the break up. I explained to him how what he had said had hurt me. I asked him if he meant it and he said he did. He treated me as if I was stupid. That talk made me feel useless and I felt alone. I wasn't but I was soon to be. I hid in my room for the weekend. That's when I faced yet another challenge. Our family had a code where we would tell one another everything and we would take down the issue as a whole. I never told my mum about it as she had just come back from holiday. I could tell she was going to be tired and stressed which was why I never told her. Phoebe, my ex best friend, asked to talk to Theo. I said she could as there was nothing to loose. Nothing could go wrong. Or so I thought. The day Phoebe spoke to Theo had broken me even more than Theo had done already. She told me to meet her at the library and she wasn't there when I arrived. I walked into the nearest toilets to see if she was there. I could here voices so I snuck in and hid in a stall. I listened in to the conversation and occasionally looked over the stall. I looked over for the last time when the voices stopped. Theo kissed Phoebe. I could have easily forgiven that but she kissed him back but for much longer. I got my revenge on them. Soon after it was just me and Donnie.  My mum found out about this but surprisingly she was not angry. Lets go back to Donnie. He fell in love with me and I rejected him. I didn't know how I felt and I didn't know how to love. The school break came along and i finally realised i had a crush on Donnie. I was scared to tell him at first. I finally told him but he had a girlfriend now. Theo, being the nosey person he was, stuck his nose into my business. Theo caused fights between me and Amber by stirring things up. He fed her lies in which she belived. She would get away with murder especially around Donnie. I gave up pretending and started fighting for what i believed. This of course did not work and made everything much worse. Donnie snapped and fought with me. He accused me of things i had never done. I had had enough and i was breaking even more than i already was. I was so broken i thought it was impossible to break anymore but once again i was wrong. That was when i realised i was alone. I had lost everyone i loved. I was just the girl in the background that nobody noticed. Theo used me, Phoebe betrayed me and Donnie was just a ticking time bomb. I was torn but i never lost hope, which is why i am here now.

However there is always a bright side. You learn from your mistakes. I have realised now that a break up is like a broken mirror. Its better to leave it than hurt yourself trying to pick up the pieces. You're a victim of your own mind! We all believe things that are not real or is just an act. We always believe things because it looks like what your thinking. Your mind is taking over your beliefs. People will think that because she is smiling, she is happy. But you cant let that fool you. If you look deep into her eyes you can see she's breaking inside. Just like ice melts into rain, Sometimes, love turns to pain. But the true question is have you ever been so sad that it physically hurt inside? Because I have. Its sad when you realise you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were but nothing hurts more than being disappointed by the one person you thought would never hurt you. Its amazing how one stupid mistake can change everything. When someone does something wrong, don't forget all the things they did right. We all make mistakes. Really stupid mistakes. But don't let those mistakes be the reason that you gave up on somebody. The biggest mistake I have made in my life is letting people stay in my life longer than they deserve. One lie can ruin a thousand truths. Trust is like an eraser. It gets smaller with every mistake you make. Through the time I was falling in and out of love I realised that sometimes, two people have to fall apart to realise how much they need to fall back together. Not everyone realises that a simple I love you means more than money. You need to remember that one day, someone is going to hug you so tight that all your broken pieces will stick right back together. If your alone then don't worry because one day you will reach a happy ending. It can be better to be alone. That way nobody can hurt you. During life you will encounter many problems. Some times you have to give up on people. Not because you don't care but because they don't. Remember, just because you miss someone, it doesn't mean you should go back to them. Sometimes, you have to just keep on missing them until you wake up one day and realise you don't need them in your life anymore. In all honesty we all get scars but the scars you cant see are the hardest to heal.

I realise now more than ever that I'm no longer afraid of monsters because I once loved one. So I better end this of on a good note and obviously tell the truth. That leaves me to only a few things to say. I'm just going to choose my favourite. That one favourite thing is that I now know that Kol is not my number one but that he's my only one.
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Sooo, Eva's story had finally come to an end. Please let me know what you thought of this book as a whole. I have had so much fun writing this story as I felt so drawn to the characters in a way. I hope you have enjoyed this chapter and the rest of the book. I guess I will see you in my new book 😂.
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-A xx