Heya guys here's the next chapter of the story, Really hope you like it, Leave me your feedback.
Niall's Pov:
I used to be so proud of my brothers. I'd always tell people about how brilliant they were. Teachers at school knew me as Niall, Louis and Liam's baby brother. They'd always ask me how they were and I'd sit there telling the teachers how amazing the both of them are doing. I was never ashamed of them, I never thought I would be. I was proud to be related to them, But now that's changed. Now I don't talk to people about them, I don't tell people I'm related to them. Liam and Louis they've changed so much. They still love me the way they used to, But the way they provide for me is something I'm not proud of, How can I be? The things they do makes me skin crawl. How can they take pride in hurting other people? I don't want them to be known as these massive criminals, It's not who they are. Under cause of death on the death certificates I want to write old age, Not stabbing. I don't want it to read what my fathers did, Punctured lung and internal bleeding. I don't want them to end up the way he did.
Tonight the two of them are doing god knows what, I've been sent to spend the night at my bestfriends house. Me and Harry have been friends since we were in nursery. He's been with me through everything. After my father died and my mum got ill Harry was the only one there for me. The long hours I'd spend at the hospital by my mothers side, Harry he'd be right there with me. Whenever Louis and Liam have a job to do, Harry he'll always come and stay with me or let me stay at his. The relationship I have with him is the relationship I used to have with Lou and Li.
"What're Louis and Liam doing tonight anyway?" Harry asked as we laid out on his bed with a box of pizza between us.
"I dunno. Don't really wanna know. Whatever Zayn's told them to do I suppose" I replied before taking a bite of the pizza.
"Who is this Zayn?" Harry questioned.
"The new leader of the gang, Yaser Malik's son, He took over from him a few months after my father died" I informed him.
"Yeah but what does he actually do?"
"Nothing lets other people do his dirty work for him I suppose, I never really stick around to talk with him" I replied.
"You know for someone who hates him you don't really know much about him" Harry commented.
"He runs the gang that caused my dads death Harry"
"That wasn't Zayn's fault though. You can't pin that blame on Zayn. As much as we hate to admit it your dad, Louis and Liam they wern't forced into the gang they agreed of there own free will, Zayn only asked them to join he didn't force them, You can't pin there stupidity on him" Harry said, I sighed.
"I know. I'm not, I just, I don't understand it Harry. Our dad he died doing the very same thing the two of them are doing, Yet they still do it. They promised our mother that they'd look after me, How can they think this is the only way?" I exclaimed, Harry placed a hand on my knee.
"I dunno mate only people who know that answer is them. I think at the time they thought it was the only option. When you all lost your parents they were still young Ni, It was a responsibility they didn't see coming. The only thought either of them had was to look after you. Some people say a gangs like a family, Maybe to them Zayn offered the family they needed" Harry stated.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"A family look out for eachother and help eachother. You've told me whenever you need money Zayn gives it to the boys. Maybe to them the gang is the family they need. They need help looking after you the gang might be like a source of protection? You said so yourself Yaser and your dad were bestfriends" Harry pointed out.
"Whenever they do a job Liam states that Zayn wants me out the way so I don't get hurt. That's why they sent me here tonight" I said.
"Maybe the gang isin't as bad as you think?" Harry suggested.
"How can anyone in a gang be good?" I questioned, Harry shrugged.
"I dunno Ni. You need to talk to Liam and Louis they'll answer those questions better then I can" Harry said.
"Why'd they do it Haz? Why'd they risk there lives?" I chocked out, Harry took hold of my hand.
"I dunno Nialler. All I know is Liam and Lou love you and they'll do anything they can to protect you. I also know your scared of losing them the way you've lost everyone else, But you need to speak with them" Harry replied, I slowly nodded.
"Do you think there looking down on me? My mum and dad?" I asked.
"Course I do, I don't know many things Ni but I do know the people we love never really leave us. Yeah maybe physically they do but they'll always be in your heart. Your hearts a place nothing and no one can touch or harm them" Harry explained, I smiled slightly.
"I'm scared Haz. I'm so scared, I don't wanna lose them, I just want them to stop" Tears began falling from my eyes. "I want Li and Lou with me for as long as possible. I can't lose them" I cried out, Harry wrapped his arms around me. "I can't handle that pain again, I don't wanna be alone Harry" I chocked out, Harry slowly rocked us backwards and forwards.
"That won't happen. You'll never be alone Ni, I promise you" Harry exclaimed, I shook my head.
"You can't promise me that" I whispered.
"Yes, Yes I can. You don't have to be afraid of losing people Niall. Louis and Liam aren't going anywhere. Neither am I. You've always got me Ni whatever happens you have me"
Harry stayed holding me until I'd fully calmed down. After that he made us both a cup of hot chocolate before bed. As Harry's snores echoed around the room, His words echoed around my mind. I slowly pulled out my phone and texted Liam.
'Stay safe, Lou too, I love you both xx' Minutes later I received a reply.
'Get to bed you! We'll see you tomorrow love li and lou xxx' I sighed before locking my phone. As I closed my eyes Harry's reassuring words were running through my mind. I just hope he's right, I can't lose anyone else that I love.
