Tainted Soul {Formerly Fallen} (Book 3) (Completed)

Chapter 7

Kait POV

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Somedays I wished I could actually read thoughts instead of just feelings and emotions. It was a huge pain in the ass to be able to read emotions, but not thoughts. I would love to know what ran through my ex-husband's head at the very least. If I could read him and only him, I'd be happy. If I could, I'd never have married him, I'd never have slept with him that night after work or that night at the lake on the Fourth of July. God, there was so much I wished I knew about him. As much as it seems like I regretted everything I did with him, I didn't. It made me the person I am today and I know for sure I'll be smart enough not to let someone screw with me like that again. I guess in a way I could read minds, even if it's just Melanie's. In a way it counts, I suppose.

"Rosa, maybe you should talk to Queen Dragomir about this. She might know some people who could help you." Melanie said, obviously reading my thoughts.

"I just have to find the time for a trip to Pennsylvania." I said.

"We'll go this weekend. It's the middle of the summer. If we wanted to, we could go now for god's sake." She said.

"We can't go now! We have dipshit to deal with! He just left and I'm sure he'll be back within a week! He always is!" I yelled.

"Rosa, Rosa, Rosa! Calm down! We'll just have to get rid of him somehow. Everything will work out somehow, it always does."

"Everything does not work out! Ever since he came into the picture, shit's been hitting the fan faster than you can say supercalafradulisticexpialadosious!" I yelled.

"It has not been! Remember all those good times? Like that one time where we all, we all..." she trailed off.

"See what I mean? The man lives for sex! That's all he ever cared about! It's all he'll ever care about! I realized what his daughter meant when he said his son was 'out being Dan' and I realized where he got it and why Dave said that I really didn't want to know! His son is the same way he is! After Melanie was born, I got busier, the sex level declined, he got bored, and he cheated and left! It pisses me off so much! What happened to the 'I'll love you forever.'? What the fuck happened?! I used to be happy, then he came along! Why did I take that job?! Why did I follow him that night he kissed me?! Why did I sleep with him that same night?! Why did I accept him into my home that night after his wife left him?! Why--"

"Rosa! Look at me! This is not you! Something is wrong, Rosa! Something is seriously wrong! You--"

"There is nothing wrong with me! This IS me! I'm perfectly fine! You think I'm going crazy, but I'm not! I'm not! I'm not! I'm not! He has to pay for all that he's done to me, done to us! None of that jail shit, he has to pay! He has to hurt! He needs to feel the pain that he gave me!" I screamed, Melanie got wide-eyed and backed away from me.

"R-rosa." she said, backing into a chair and almost tripping.

"What fucking now?!" I yelled.

"Y-y-your eyes." She said, stuttering.

"What about them?! They're just eyes! Are they turning purple? What?!" I yelled.

"You're scaring me, Rosa." She said, almost in tears.

"So now I scare you?! After god knows how many years?! It should have been from the very beginning! I'm a vampire for Christ's sake! I live on a diet of blood! My head is burning! Why the fuck is my head burning?! It feels like I'm on fire!" I screamed.

I saw black shapes in the corners of my vision. When I turned to look at them, they were gone. All of the sudden, they were everywhere and I saw people with them.

"Get them away! Get them away! What the hell are you fuckers?! Why does my head feel like someone just shoved a chainsaw into my skull?! I've gotta get out of here!" I screamed before running out the front door.