Chapter 15
Jax's Personal Diary
Location: Natrum Sphere, in orbit around Thaxus Prime
One month and three weeks after his return
For the first time since I became a Knight, I am torn between my duty and that which I feel. I suppose I was naive to believe that I had mastered my emotions. The Council, I'm sure, would say that. Perhaps I should've been leery of seeing her again. She's always brought up my underlying temperaments faster than others. I hadn't expected to see her again, not truly. Definitely not a shell of her former self and so... grown up. It is strange to see my childhood training partner in such a way. To view her as a woman. And then to learn what happened to her not even six months after I took my trials. I am not proud of my emotions on what transpired, but must say I'm unsympathetic to the King's new plight. It's the least he can do to atone; I believe...Such a very unJedi like thing for me to say.
Perhaps I'm not the one she needs after all. Not if I'm starting to question our beliefs. But I can't pull away now, not when she's put such faith in me. Not after..., I am not proud of my behavior that last day on Dantooine. I knew that Temple was forbidden. That it was dangerous in more than one way, especially for an Padawan. I should've recognized the effect it'd have on her once I learned of its true nature. I should've never agreed to her folly, either of them. But if she asks me again... I'm not sure I'll be strong enough to refuse her either. She's stirred something in me, something I can't put into words yet. But I fear because of it or for it, it may well be both of our undoing's.
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