LA Days || Kade Speiser FF

It's Okay

11:00 am
I woke up this morning with four missed calls from my mom, which is not normal, she normally just text. I call her back.
"Hello?" she says.
"Hey, its Lydia, you called me." I said
"Where are you right now?"
"I'm in my room at the house. Why?"
"Because I have to tell you something,"
"Mom, what's happening?"
"It's your grandpa,"
I suddenly felt a wave of sadness and worry crash over me.
"What happened?" I asked worried.
"You know how he has been in and out of the hospital for about a year now."
"Yeah.."
"Well the doctors told us he only has about 2 days left, they put him on life support and moved him back home, because he asked to spend his last days at home.....Lydia I'm really sorry to say this but he pasted away last night. I know this is a lot to handle, but don't worry about anything."
"Okay.."
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah, I'm fine, I'm gonna go tell Jake, so he knows what's happening." I said into the phone.
"Okay. Call me if you need anything. Love you." my mom says.
"Yeah, love you too." I hung up the phone.
I really don't know what to do. I feel heartless. I'm not crying. I don't know why. I love him. He's my best friend. I love him. Why am I still not crying. What does this mean.
I walk out of my room and go straight to Jakes. I explain everything to him.
"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'm okay."
I get up to leave the room and turn around facing Jake once more.
"Hey Jake, can you tell the others."
"Don't worry, I will."
I walk back to my room and just lay on my bed and start to think.
'It's a good thing I lost contact with my emotions or I would be a mess. I kind of wanna cry, but I can't let people see me weak. Lydia you're fine. Perfectly fine. I think.'
I finally get up and change into running clothing:

I run down the stairs avoiding eye contact with everyone. I know they know but I really don't to be ask a thousand times if i'm okay or not. They may mean it at first, but after the third or forth time their just doing it so they can think you have supported, even if you don't want it or don't have it. I run out the door and start walking. A couple hours pass and I finally decided it was time to go home and face all the pitty sorry's. I walked in the front door and just like that a swarm of people came around me asking me the question I could have waited a thousand years to hear.
"Are you okay? Do you need anything? I'm so sorry Lydia! I'm here for you. You can talk to me." They all say to me.
"Guys I'm fine, it's life, it happens. Thank you for the support but I'm fine." I say. I walk upstairs to take a shower. Once i'm done I change:

but i didn't wear the hat. I walked down stairs and when into the office where Kade, Jake, Nick, and Tessa were. I sit down in my chair and open up my laptop. I look at my screen, it's a picture of my grandpa. Tears start to flood my eyes, next thing I know I run out of the room and go up to my room and just sat there.

                         Kade's POV
"Someone needs to talk her." Jake said looking at all of us.
"Is she okay? Is she gonna be okay?" Chance ask.
"Should we go talk to her?" Tessa asked, pointing at both her and Erika.
"No no, if someone goes up there it needs to be Kade." Jake says.
Everybody's face turn to me. I get up and start walking up the stairs to Lydia's room.

                       Lydia's POV
There's a knock on my door.
"Lydia it's Kade, can I come in?" He ask.
"Come on in." I said.
He walks over to the bed and lays down.
"I'm guessing you don't want to talk?" He says.
"kade....."
I fell onto his shoulder and just cried.
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I fell asleep on Kade's shoulder and I was shocked that when I woke up he was still there. I looked up at him.
"Thank you." I said looking into this eyes.
"You needed a friend to be here for you." He says.
My smile slowly started to leave my face by the word 'friend'.
"Well, thanks. I don't really know what happened down there, but thanks for giving me shoulder to cry on." I say.
"What do you want to do? We can go to the movies, the beach, anywhere." He says to me.
"I don't know, normally went ever I get like this I just go workout."
"We can do that, just tell me where and we'll go." He replies.
"Okay, well there's a little gym up on the corner that isn't normally that busy."
"Okay, I'm gonna go grab some clothes from Jake and then we'll go." He says while walking away.
Once he's out of sight I get up and change into black nike shorts, black nike shoes, and one of Jakes merch shirts. Kade walked back in.
"Ready to go?" He asked.
"Yeah, let's go." I rush down the stairs and out the door. I thought Kade would stay in there for a second just to tell someone where we're going, but when I turned around he was right there. We got in the car and when to the gym.
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I started working out right away, while Kade took a little longer. A couple hours passed and Jake called me.
"Heyo!" I said.
"Hey, how's it going!" he says.
"Good, I think we're about to rap up. Hey and when we get home can I talk to all of you guys, together?" I ask.
"Yeah! I'll have everyone meet in the kitchen." He said.
"Okay, see ya in like 30 minutes." I said before hanging up.
I walk over to Kade.
"Hey, we have to leave soon, cause I need to talk to everyone and Jake said he would gather them all up for me." I say as he puts down the weight.
"Okay, what are you going to talk to them about?" He asked as he wiped the sweat off his face.
"Well I guess you'll just have to wait and see!" I said with a smile.
He smiled back and began to get his stuff together. We got home around 7 pm and went straight into the kitchen. Everyone was already there. Chance, Anthony and the twins sat in the trampoline, while Nick, Tessa, Erika and Jake stood with there backs facing the front door. Kade walked over to Jake and stood by him. I looked around the room.
"You guys are probably wondering why I asked you to meet me in here. I know I have been acting strange today and I know you guys know why. I also know that you guys have a come questions, so let me answer some that I came up with. I have decided to not go back home for the funeral, I want the last time I see him to be a good memory, which it is. I said my goodbyes to him a month ago when we first found out what was happening. I don't want you guys to ask me if I'm okay, because I am okay, and if I wasn't okay I would tell one of you about it. You guys are my family and love you all with my whole heart! I don't want anyone to act weird around me, these things happen it's part of life, it my be the part that sucks, but it's still a part of it. I grief in my own way and that means going to my room for a little bit to be by myself then so be it. This is the Team 10 house and everyday is a new adventure and I don't want to stop that just because life happened, so let's get back to what we're here for, to have fun and live life to its fullest!" I said.
Everyone cheered and crowded around me and had a big group hug. I'm finally happy were I'm at with my life. My next mission....my love life.
This is gonna be fun!
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I hope you liked this chapter. I know it was kinda slow but the next one is going to be more eventful and fun! Tell me what you think of the story and what I can do to make it better and more interesting!
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