Starting Over

12 - Friends with Benefits

He leaned in slowly placing a kiss on my lips. Pulling back a little his breath fanned my face. "Do you want me?" He said ever so softly that if there were other people in the room only I could hear him.

I nodded my head unable to form any words. He grabbed my chin and kissed more passionately than before.

Our tongues played tango while our clothes became friends on the floor.

He ripped his shirt off and pushed me against the wall. He gently placed kisses on my neck and trailed them down my stomach and eventually to my golden place.

I groaned softly pulling at his hair.

There was a loud bang on my door "Lenox!"

Drew and I pulled apart and quickly threw on our clothes. "Yeah just a second!" I yelled back breathing heavily.

"Could you open the door it's Chase"

I looked at Drew and pushed him into my bathroom. "Wait here." I whispered sternly.

I shut the door and flew open my door. Looking Chase up and down he looked upset.

I frowned at him. "What's wrong?"

"My dad found out" he said while tearing up.

I looked at him and focused on his face. I pulled him into my room and sat him down at the edge of my couch. His tears and breathes started to become heavier.

"What happened?" I said while rubbing his back. I was never really good at comforting people. I was a great listener but giving advice was not in my alley.

He took a deep breath and choked his words out. "I was in my room with Alex and.." he stopped and started crying harder.

I pulled him closer and he sobbed into my shoulder. I hummed a soft melody more to myself while his sobs got softer as he listened to me. "Shh" I whispered while holding him close.

He lifted his head and took a deep breath. After composing himself he stared at my purple walls. "He didn't say anything. He just had that look of disappointment and disgust"

Chase paused for a few seconds gathering his thought then continued. "He stood there and stared then just looked at Alex and very calmly told him to leave his house"

Slowly Chase lost his composure again and allowed tears to trickle down his face.

I didn't know what to say so I just held him there until he whispered. "I wasn't ready to come out yet"

My heart broke for him.

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After twenty minutes of calming Chase down I finally got him looking presentable and convinced him to come downstairs.

We walked passed the living room and stood in front of a door that led to an office.

Before we walked in we heard soft shouting through the doors.

"I don't give a damn that he's gay! I give a damn that he's been doing things with this boy we thought was just his friend!" Rob yelled.

I glanced at Chase who began tearing up. I stepped forward and softly knocked on the door.

There were whispering and muffling sounds that followed. Ann opened the door with a smile and then looked at chase. Her face fell into a frown and she grabbed him for a hug. "Oh my poor baby!"

She mouthed thank you to me and pulled him in the room while shutting the door behind her.

I took a deep breathe and shook my head. "What a family" I mumbled.

As I got to my room I saw Drew laying on my bed playing with his phone. "Hey" I mumbled closing the door behind me and locking it.

He sat up from his position. "Everything ok?" He asked.

I plopped down beside him and nodded my head. "Yeah just family issues" I sighed.

I couldn't help but think what almost went down. Drew and I did have a friends with benefits that went on a year ago but then he fell in love with his girlfriend so we cut it off.

He began playing with the strands of my hair. I watched him tangle them in his hands. "What're we doing?" I blurted.

Drew looked shocked and taken back. He released my hair and got up from my bed. I watched him stare out my porch while scratching the back of his head. "I don't really know?" He sighed.

He turned around and opened his mouth then closed it again before opening it back up. "Maybe we could go back to what we use to do" he mumbled while staring into my eyes.

My heart dropped. I really liked Drew but to him I was only his best friend and sex buddy nothing more nothing less.

I played with my fingers and fought the anger seeping from me. I cleared my throat before bravely speaking. "Am I just your fuck buddy now because you broke up with your girlfriend?"

He furrowed his eyebrows and sat down next to me again. "What do you mean? Did I do something?"

"Yes." I whispered. "I think you should go" My heart was numb.

Drew searched my eyes. "I didn't mean to offend you" he said as he sat at the edge of the bed next to me.

I forced a smile on my face and stared into Drew's eyes. "I know" I whispered. "I just need some time alone" 

He slightly nodded his head. "I understand." With that said he grabbed his jacket and phone

I held the back the tears in my eyes but when the door slammed shut I sobbed into my pillow.