Shattering Love

Chapter 38: Enough For Me

Shawn's P.O.V.
I look out at all of my fans as they are walking away. I slowly put the microphone back onto its stand. Sweat trails down my back as the concert is now over. I only have one more performance and then I can go home. Well I guess I can't really call it home if Cameron isn't going to be there. Who knows, maybe he will be. Who am I kidding though? Wouldn't I act the same exact way if Cameron cheated on me? I look off to left stage and see a grinning Nevada running up towards me. I haven't seen her at my past few shows. "Shawn!!" she says excitedly.

"Hey Nevada." I say half-heartedly. No one knows about Cameron and I breaking up besides the two of us and Nash. I haven't had the balls to talk to Nevada about what happened that night. I also really miss Tara. I've tried calling her several times and she won't answer; just like Cameron. Two amazing people I've lost in my life because of the mistake I made with Nevada.

"What's wrong?" she asks.

"Nothing." I say smiling, as I lower down the microphone stand. I really don't wanna talk to her about Cam and I breaking up. I don't want her to feel like it's all her fault then go out and say awful things about me in the news.

"Come on Shawn. Just tell me."

"It's nothing." I say sadly. I honestly do not wanna talk about it. I know I'll cry. I almost cry just thinking about Cameron.

"Well fine then. I have some good news. So my boyfriend and I-"

"Boyfriend?" I yell loudly knocking over the microphone stand.

"Yes." She says confused and smiling. "Is there a problem?"

"No. Just like how long have you guys been dating?"

"About a year now. Anyways he's coming to visit me and I can't wait. Last time we saw each other was about two weeks ago. We didn't really have that much time to catch up if you know what I mean." I just stare at Nevada. How is she ok with just cheating on her boyfriend. And wasn't two weeks ago when we hooked up?

"How are you guys still dating?"

"What do you mean?" she asks confused.

"Does he not know about what happened between me and you?" I ask. It was the first time that I had ever made reference to when we hooked up.

"Shawn that was nothing. Derrick's not gonna care about that." I look at her astonished.

"How can you say that? If you truly loved him then you wouldn't have cheated on him."

"Shawn I merely think sharing a drunk kiss or two is cheating."

"What?" I ask confused.

"Well it's not like he's never drunk kissed anyone. We've been apart for a while and I think he's gonna understand me messing up one time."

"But hooking up isn't just sharing a drunk kiss." I say shell shocked.

"Shawn, you and I never hooked up. I honestly have no idea what you're talking about. After I left your hotel that morning Derrick picked me up and we had sex. But not you and me." she says, as if I'm stupid.

"Then why did I wake up next to you naked in bed?"

"You don't remember?" she says laughing. "We were looking up truth or dare questions online and your dare was to take off all your clothes."

"Ok, well that doesn't explain why we were both sleeping in the same bed together."

"Shawn we just passed out on the couch bed."

"So wait a minute! You're actually telling me that you and I never had sex."

"We never had sex Shawn." she says laughing. "Why?"