Shattering Love

Chapter 49: Tests Results

Cameron's P.O.V.
I watch as Shawn looks at the small infant inside of the NICU(Neonatal Intensive Care Unit). It's basically just a glass box that protects, monitors, and insures the baby's safety. Shawn is holding my hand as he looks at the baby Summer. I look down at the small girl laying asleep. She doesn't look like Shawn. Then again, she is like 4 days old and is a girl, so she probably wouldn't look that much like him. We're supposed to be getting the DNA test results at three o' clock today. "Babe she's gonna be ok." I say to him. He looks up at me and smiles.

"I know." Although he's smiling, sadness can be seen in his eyes.

"She sure is beautiful." I say, trying to cheer him up.

"I know." he says, looking at her again. I see tears start to form in his eyes.

"Babe." I say sadly.

"I'm so confused." he says crying. "Am I supposed to love her? Am I not? I don't even know if she's mine." His head leans over into my shoulder, and I turn over facing him, so he can rest his head on me easier.

"Baby calm down. This whole situation is just confusing." I say, not really knowing what to say.

"Cameron what if she is mine? I don't feel any love for her at all. When I look at her all I see is a baby. I'm such an awful person." he says crying.

"Shawn you are not an awful person. Maybe that just means that she's not your baby. Maybe that's why you don't feel that love; cause you're body knows she isn't yours."

"But that's the thing Cameron! I don't know if she's mine or not. I have absolutely no idea." I hate when my Shawn is frustrated like this.

"Look at me babe." I make him look me in the eyes. "We are going to find out in," I pull out my phone to look at the time. It's 12:04. "Less than 3 hours if this child is yours. It does you no good to stand here and feel bad about yourself when you literally have no idea if Summer is yours." Summer is a really cute name for a baby. I'm kind of jealous of the baby's name. "Why don't we go take a little nap out in the car and when we wake up we'll be minutes away from knowing the truth." He's just looking back at Summer. "And besides if you can't sleep, you can cuddle with me." I reach down and grab his hand. "Come on. Besides the nurse is about to run us out of here. It's almost changing time." He lifts his hand up to his face and blows baby Summer a kiss. I grab ahold of his hand and we walk out of the nursery. "Do you wanna grab a bite to eat somewhere first? I know you haven't eaten in awhile." What would he do if he didn't have me here taking care of him all the time.

"I'm not very hungry." he says. I notice Shawn's hair looks extra curly today.

"Yes you are." I say confidently. "Let's go eat at that smile diner I saw a few blocks from the hospital." I smile at him.

"Ok." he says. We get into the rental car we've been using the past 4 days.

"Have you talked to Sierra while we've been gone?" I ask him.

"Nope." We drive the rest of the way in comfortable silence. While walking into the small diner named Country Cookin', I smell Shawn's cologne. God damn does it smell good.

"Two please." I say to the server.

"Follow me." she says. I follow behind Shawn. She shows us our table.

"I'll have a water." he says.

"Me too." I smile at the waitress.

"I'll be right back with your drinks." she says, walking away. Shawn sits down and I go in to sit down next to him. My body hits his and I just look at his blank face. I guess he doesn't want me to sit by him. I move over to the other side of the booth and sit across from him.