it's been exactly 36 days since my courtship with Hayden i love him very much . I know he loves me . I am sitting outside on the side walk i have some chalk and wanted to draw a heart with Hayden's name on it and surpise him . As he walks out i sign "what's wrong" he signs "nothing " I looked him in the eye and said "i am your girlfriend don't u dare lie to me alright". He burst in to tears and said "My mom tricked me Jamie she tricked me she did your house is a mess and i am sorry i love my mom but i am sorry she told me she hated me and like i said she hurt me i told u that i don't know why i let her in my house i don't know why i am sorry i am so sorry". He had told me the story of his mom when he was a little boy i said "no i am sorry i shouldn't have asked her to move in it was none of my bussniess i am sorry u must hate me i am sorry sweetie i am sorry i caused u all this pain". He ran across to my yard he said "my mom hates me she does i ruined her life i did Jamie i ruined it am i loved really am i ". As he ran off i grabbed Hayden's arm and said "u are loved i love u i always will if your hurting tell me okay that's what i am here for i want u to be with me forever sweetie please i love u". I hugged him as we started crying together i rubbed his soft hair. We sat on that sidewalk and talked all night a lot of tears shed but a lot of healing was done to i also shared my deepest memories and we cried about that too . I felt being open was the best method ever in a relationship . Gregg walked out and said "momma want u jamie and hay". We run inside holding hands by the sound of her voice it seemed my brothers call was quite ergent . When we got to the door i said "gregg what happend to sweetie what happend". He said "We have no money". Hayden said "what do u mean buddy". Karmi rushed to the door and said "she means your mother took all the money out of our bank account were broke because of u" I said "karmi shut your mouth don't u talk to my boyfriend like that got it he has been through enough so shut up". Hayden looked shocked and said "boy u can throw down a punch
