Don't Ever Leave Me [Lashton]

Part 9

Luke's POV

Um no I'm not going to tell Jennifer, or any of the boys, that I may or may not like ashton. I will tell them when I'm ready. I just wish I can tell someone ugh.

Wait! I can tell someone about this! the one person who I trust -I trust the boys but I don't want them thinking I'm weird and/or crazy- and that one person who can help me.

"Hey guys! do you know where Louis is??" I ask walking into the back room, "no not really, he might be in the bus or with the other boys, why?" calum tells me. "um no reason I just need to talk to him," I say, Michael and calum both look at each other.

"you know you can talk to us about it, right?" Michael said/asked me. "Yes I know, but I need to talk to someone who understands," I say and with that I turn around and walk out of the bus and go to the One Direction bus.

KNOCK KNOCK

I knock before I enter because I kinda find it rude to just barge in to be honest.

"Waddup!" I say seeing Louis and Harry cuddling on the couch. "where's zayn, Niall, and liam?" I say to the two love birds. sigh. I wish that would be me and Ashton. "they went to the mall. what's up?" Louis tells me. "um I need to talk to you, Louis," I tell Louis, he whispers something into Harry's ear as he nods. "okay let me just get my jacket!" I nod and wait outside the bus in the cool weather.

"Is everything okay?" I hear a familiar voice say, louis. "well I just need to ask you some things.."i say to him looking at the ground shuffling my feet. "sure, anything!" he says with a smile, even if I don't see him I know he's smiling, crazy lou he always smiles!

"The first time you saw, or met, harry how did you feel?" I say walking down the street. "Well I have mixed feelings. Since we met in a bathroom in the xfactor, I didn't really know he was going to be in the same group as me to be honest but I'm glad he was because without him I wouldn't be happy." he said smiling.

"when you first found out you had feelings for Harry, how did you feel?" "I was kinda "oh my gosh" because I didn't know that I was gay, I was shocked, I wanted to tell him so badly but I always thought that he would think I'm weird and distance himself from him," Louis said, that's how I'm feeling right now about Ashton, i'm scared he might distance himself from me if I tell him I like him. "Why are you asking me these questions? it's not a bother but I'm curious," he asks me. "well I never told anyone before but I think I like ashton.." I finally told someone. I put my head in my hands and thought 'ugh why Luke why did you have to tell him!'

"ashton? as in Ashton Irwin? as in the drummer in your band Ashton?!" He said, I sighed and said "yes that ashton," I paused, "I had the same reaction when I found out that I liked Ashton but I'm just so confused and I don't know what to do louis." I said putting my head in my hands for the second time today. I feel a hand on my shoulder, I know that's Louis because he's the only one with me. "it's going to be okay Luke. But first, this whole Ashton and Kaitlin thing? what do you think is gonna happen?" he asks me, I feel anger build up but then I control it. "I think Ashton likes her..and it hurts to see him like her and not me.." I say, I feel a tear roll down my cheek. ugh now I wish that we didn't go to the mall that day.

"I'm gonna think this through. thank you lou," I say giving the lad a friendly hug going back to the 5sos bus.

What am I going to do?

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Hello beautifuls! Well I was writing this chapter on the road bc there's nothing to do! Oh gosh😒

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