Don't Ever Leave Me [Lashton]

Part 6

Hello beautifuls😊 I'm back! So in the chapter you will find out something horrible about luke😱😭 well I'm keeping my lips sealed so you can read ;) peace yo ✌️

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-Luke's POV-

"hey guys!" Ashton says coming into the room in the back of the bus.

"hey ash," I say to him smiling.

"where's mike and cal?"

"oh they went out to eat," I said.

"oh, I see, well I'm going to text Kaitlin and see if she wants to hang out, wanna hang out with us?" ash asks me, why do I feel jealous, oh god.

"uh...Nahh I'm good," I told him, he gets his phone out and starts typing. Whenever he texts he sticks his cute little tongue out and he looks like he is concentrating on what he is typing, awh.

I look away so he won't catch me from looking at him.

"Well I see you later Lukey, bye," Ashton says walking out of the room. I hear the bus door open and close. 'finally alone at last!' I say to myself.

I get up to go to the bathroom, I see my reflection in the mirror and poke my stomach, "ugh I wish I wasn't fat," I whispered.

"Worthless"

"Useless"

"Fat"

"Ugly"

"Nobody cares about you

"Kill yourself"

"Go cut yourself you worthless pussy!"

"Go drink some bleach, make the world a better place"

Those voices were echoing in my head again...I've been bullied since I was a little kid, I've struggled with depression, eating disorders, suicidal thoughts, etc. I hated myself so much, I wanted to end my life knowing that nobody would care...

Sometimes I do wish I did actually end my life that night I had the chance but I was such a coward and chickened out. but I forgot all about that since I met Jennifer, she was the only person who made me happy for once in my life, she made me smile, she made me laugh, we had good times together, she was the one who helped me through all of this, she was the one who saved me, she was the one who care, but now it doesn't matter. I don't have anyone that actually cares about me, I mean mike and cal helped me but I don't know, they say they care when sometimes I don't feel like they do. the only people who knew about all this was Jennifer, cal, and mike, no one else knew, I haven't even told Ashton about it. I don't want him to know.

Ever since my break up with Jennifer made me go back to the old me. but we broke up 2 years ago :/ but either way I'm not happy anymore I usually just pretend to be fine. The boys think I am fine, but the truth is.....I'm not.

KNOCK KNOCK

"Luke, are you in there?" I hear a familiar voice say. "uh..yeah I'm here," I say looking at my reflecting one more time being disgusted by all the fat. I open the door and see Michael standing there, "oh hi Michael," I say to him, "hey Luke! where's ashton?" "Oh he went with Kaitlin," I say sounding annoyed. "You okay there mate? you sound a bit annoyed when you say her name, is everything alright?" Michael asks, "yeah I'm fine.." I said pausing then walk into the kitchen where Calum is. "hey Callie," I said to him as he looks at me with a 'if you call me that again I will kill you' kind of look. "hi, and what did I tell you about calling me Callie?" He says. i look at him with a straight look then say, "to not ever call you that because you will ignore me for a month, but seriously come on cal you can't ignore me I mean we're in the same band, you can't just ignore me, Callie." I see Calum ignoring me, "OKAY OKAY IM SORRY DONT IGNORE ME PLEASE!" i practically beg him not to ignore me because I can't go a day without talking to these 3 crazy Aussies. "I know you want me," he said teasingly, I laughed at that comment because nobody wants him, OMG just kidding.

-Michael's POV-

I wonder what Luke's problem is with Kaitlin, I'll talk to Calum about it since I can't tell Ashton because earlier he texted me saying that he got to know Kaitlin better and that he likes her, so it's better not to tell Ashton .

Luke said that he was going to go get himself some Burger King, so this is a good chance to tell Calum about this.

"Hey cal?" "Yeah mike?" "Do you, perhaps, know why Luke doesn't like Kaitlin very much?" I asked him. "Luke doesn't like Kaitlin?? but why?" "I don't know I asked him where Ashton was and he said he was with Kaitlin and he sounded a bit annoyed," I told calum, he had his thinking face on, he looks like a little boy when he thinks it's pretty funny if you ask me. "I have no clue. maybe tomorrow we'll ask like what his problem is with Kaitlin," "yeah that sounds great," I say.

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😱😱 oh em geeeee now you know one of Luke's secrets.
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Well hope you like this chapter
I feel like I did bad on this but I tried
:-) love you guys xx
Jocie💕