Don't Ever Leave Me [Lashton]

part 13

heyyy im back with a new chapter! was that last one long enough or was it too long. do you guys want long or short chapters?? well okay ill let you think and in the meantime i need to shut my mouth so you can read. oh and btw this chapter will have mostly malum in it. a little bit of lashton but y'know haha okay now read.

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 Michael's POV

im bored, and the boys aren't here they went out so that leaves me here nothing to do. 

im thinking of going out.

should i?

i should since there is nothing else better to do.

i grab my wallet and my phone which are both sitting on the little table we have next to the couch. i grab my pair of shoes and slide them on my feet. i get up and walk into the bathroom just to see how i look. yeah im a dude i mean dudes check themselves in the mirror like about everyday. i fix my hair and take one last look in the mirror. 'looking good michael' i thought to myself. 

i walk out of the bus and start walking to who knows where. ill just got down to the little store that's a few minutes from the bus. 

i walk into the store thinking of what the hell im going to do in here but hey im bored okay so leave me alone. 

i then bump into a girl who is a few inches shorter than me, "oh im so sorry i didnt see you there," i say to the girl, she turns around and frowns, "oh it's okay, no one ever sees me," she says to me looking down. she was actually beautiful if you ask me. "hey, dont say that i know people see you," i say to the girl standing there. i look down and i see her arms cover with scars. oh no!

"hey look at me," i tell her, she looks up revealing her brown eyes. "what's your name?" i ask her. "denise," she tells me. i grab her arm and say, "well denise, just know that you are beautiful, you are strong, you mean something to people," i tell her kissing her scars, "thank you michael," she says smiling. she even has a beautiful smile. "you know who i am?" i ask her smiling back. "of course i do, you are from 5 seconds of summer.  you are my sunshine," i love hearing girls say im their sunshine it makes me happy. "and you are mine," i tell her that which makes her smile, she hugs me, i hug back and say, "just promise me one thing," i pause and let go of our hug, "promise me that you will try your very best to stop harming yourself because you are beautiful," i tell her.

"i promise you," she tells me hugging me one more time. 

she wasbeautiful, and sweet, and nice, and wonderful. 

Calum's POV

me and the boys just got back from the mall and we dont see a single sign of michael. why is everyone leaving now oh my. 

"did michael say anything about leaving somewhere?" i ask luke who is sitting one the couch in the back room. "no he didnt tell me anything," he says getting his phone out of his pocket. 

"me neither, i havent heard of him since we left to go to the mall," ashton tells me taking a sip from his water bottle. "oh okay," i say sitting next to luke. ashton is a few feet away from me and luke, i see ashton staring at luke while biting his lip, "ashton can i talk to you?" i ask him then he shakes his head and says, "im sorry what?" he probably didnt hear me the first time."can i talk to you?" i ask again saying it loud and clear. he nods his head and walks to where the bunks are at. 

"what's up?" ashton asks me sitting on his bunk. "i feel like you're hiding something from me," i say he looks down, "what are you hiding ashton?" 

he doesnt say anything at first, but they he mumbles something under his breath, "what?" i ask not knowing what he just said. "me and luke almost kissed," he say. hold da phone. did he just say that him and luke almost kissed. what.okay im confused. "wait you are kissed?!" i said yelling, he gets up from his bunk and shushes me, "when did this happen?" i say sitting down because im so confused that i was going to pass out. "yesterday, at the park. i fell from my swing, he came over to me and asked me if i was okay. our faces were close to each others and we leaned it but luke stopped himself from kissing me," ashton tells me, he sits back down on his bunk and hides his head in hands.

"ashton, quick question," i start saying then pause for a moment, "do you have feelings for luke? because sometimes i catch you staring at him and you have this certain look, a look that i cant read because you never had that look in your face ever before. and i dont know im just wondering," say to him, he lifts  his head up and nods a yes. i knew it! "yes, i have for a while, but like he is straight he would never love me the way i love him," i say to him, "i know exactly how you feel, because im actually in love with this certain person and he-" i say but get cut off by a "he?" ashton asks. "yes he, im gay okay, now this new name for this band is '5 seconds of gays' i mean i am gay, well i didnt know that until i found out i had feelings for this certain boy," i say,

michael

was all i thought while i was talking to ashton.

i cant stop thinking of him

i mean the way his looks like is so hot, the way he smiles brightens up my day. the way he looks at me is beyond perfect. the way he laughs is adorable.

he is just perfect

i love him

but he is straight

he would never ever love me the way i love him to be honest. i wish he did love me though because he means alot to me.

i wish that me and him could kiss, cuddle, hold hands, call each other babe, play fight with each other, etc. i mean thats what i think about everyday doing those things with him because its just amazing at the thought of it!

but i do wonder if luke likes ashton back. i dont know though.

'gay band is gay'

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