Don't Ever Leave Me [Lashton]

part 16

hello sorry i didnt update yesterday i was busy doing alot of work. so sorry i didnt update, but i will be quiet now because well you just want me to shush so you can read. so here it is..... part 16!

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Ashton's POV

while i wait for the boys to answer my text about meeting somewhere, we dont know yet but i dont know. 

OH i got a text yay okay let me check to it is.

From puppy man: 

hey sorry man i can't hang out my mum said that i have to spend quality time with her, my sister, and my dad. sorry but hey maybe michael and luke can go. that wont be so bad right? =)

To puppy man: 

yeah its okay. go be with your family ill talk to you later. bye cal x

From puppy man: 

haha okay bye  ash^~^

i read the text and put my phone back on the table that is right in front of me. 

gosh im so like ugh right now because luke probably thinks i hate him i mean who would ever run off after saying "i love you" to someone and not even like wait for a response. well i just really want to talk to him but i dont want to make things awkward but like at the same time i dont want to lose him. 

i hear my phone ring once again. 

From rainbow mike:

i would love to hang out with you but im pretty busy right now. sorry mate :/

To rainbow mike: 

aw well it's okay im still waiting for luke to reply, i mean calum said he was busy too soo yeah

after a few more minutes michael texts back. i hope i can hang out with luke, and hopefully it wont be awkward.

From rainbow mike:

oh well have fun with lucass, dont do anything ;) 

i read the text and put my phone down, what does he mean by that? dont tell me he meant....sex. IF HE DID I WILL KILL THAT BOY!

Luke's POV

so i texted ashton back saying that we can hang out, but i really sure hope that calum and michael will be there because well i dont want things to be awkward between me and ashton because well i told him i loved him and ran off. i didnt want to run off, i wanted to see what he said but i was too chicken to stay and see what he said because i know what he would've said to me about me loving him.

i grab my jacket that is lying on the bed, then walk to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror and think 'why am i so ugly and fat..i wish i didnt tell him i loved him, im so stupid!' i sigh and walk out of the bathroom, going to the kitchen where i know my mum would be at because she usually is there reading her books.

"hey mum im going out, i will be back later," i smile and walk to the door, but before i put my hand on the knob i hear my mum say, "okay, well have fun." she smiled, i returned it and turned the doorknob and walk out. 

ashton said we should meet at the park..the park? but ugh back in new york the park is where we almost kissed. oh god. i dont want this hand out to end badly. 

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~at the park~

i see a boy on the swings, i know that is ashton because 1) of the hair and 2) he loves the swings. 

"hey ash!" i said walking over to the swing that is next to him. after that i sit down and start swinging back and forth but not to fast. he turns his head and smiles, "hey luke!" he says. "are calum and michael coming?" i ask the boy who is swinging his ass off, oh gosh. "well calum couldnt come because he had stuff to do with his family, and michael said he was busy doing god knows what," he says slowing down a bit. i stop myself and say, "oh," dammit those boys! ugh i really hoped they could come because it would be awkward between me and ashton but to be honest family always comes first. 

"is there something wrong lukey?" ashton asks me. i love it when he calls me lukey. "no, no there is nothing wrong. i was hoping they would come since back at the tour i told you something and i didnt want it to be awkward.." i say to the boy, i look down at the ground and see a flowers around us. i didnt even notice they were there since i kept my focus on ashton. 

"well im upset they couldnt come but im happy they didnt because i really wanted to talk to you about what you said to me back at the tour," ashton says but im still too scared of what he is going to say, so i get up and start walking away. "luke you cant always run away, please let's just talk about this" he says grabbing my wrist. 

i just remembered that yesterday i might have harmed myself because i hated myself so much because of what i have said to ashton. 

"luke?" he said looking down at my wrist. i pull my arm away from his grip but he wont let go. he pulls up my sleeve and sees more cuts that i did yesterday. i pulled down my sleeve and looked down. sigh this is what else i didnt want to happen. "i-im sorry," i studder. why am i all of a sudden so depressed, oh yeah maybe because the boy that im madly in love with just saw my cuts. 

"we will talk about this later but i just wanted to answer you back at the tour, i just wanted to tell you that i um..." okay please dont tell me that he hates me now oh god. oh well i dont care. i seriously just dont care anymore. "i love you too" he said. i look up and smile and say "you do?" 

"yes i do. i really do it's been a while since i started had feelings for you," he said returning the smile i gave him. 

this is actually real. dont tell me im dreaming. now im sounding like a fangirl. oh my god ashton irwin actually loves me, whAT OH MY.

"and ever since i have had feelings for you i have been wanting to become more than friends with you," he said smiling even wider, okay if this boy smiles bigger i dont think you would be able to see his ears anymore oh my. "soo i was wondering if you would like to maybe go out with me?" ashton asks me. WAIT A MOMENT DID HE JUST- HOLD UP IM TRYING NOT TO FANBOY IN FRONT OF HIM OH EODFJVHE.

"i would love to go out with you," i say to him, okay this boy literally just like made my day better i really dont care if he saw my wrists anymore because well i mean the boy of my dreams just asked me out. 

of course i would say yes

i mean

i love him...

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hey you sexy people!

here is part 16 hope you like it^~^ sorry i took so long, i got writers block but then i figured what i wanted to write.

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ill try to update in the next two days. love you guys xx

Jocie