Don't Ever Leave Me [Lashton]

part 14

Calum's POV

michael finally came back to the bus, he went out. i kinda got jealous when he told us about denise to be honest but then i was happy that we kinda helped her through things.

me and him are playing FIFA right now, im going to beat him at this because im a pro at this game.

"OHHHHHHH YES! HA BEAT THAT!" i yell getting up from the couch excitedly, i do my little happy dance then sit back down. i turn to look at michael and he has a cute little pouty face on. aw i love it when he does that he looks so adorable.

then after of playing this game a few more times he beats me...WHAT! OH MY GOD NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

he starts doing his cute happy dance that makes me happy because i love it when he is happy.

i put on a pouty face and say, "aw man," "dont be sad cal, i still love ya," he says which turns my pout into a smile.

we play for like the whole day. i love it when he is happy, if he is happy, im happy.

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Luke's POV

why did i lean in to kiss him at the park. im so stupid. ugh i hate myself, why did i do that when i knew that he liked kaitlin, but then i did notice that he leaned in as well. im so confused ugh.

i need to know why he leaned in as well to be honest.

"hey ashton can i ask you something?" i ask the boy who is laying in his bunk while im laying in mine. calum and michael are in the back, they cant hear anything because they are too busy playing fifa.

"sure mate, anything," he says looking at me. "when we were at the park why did you lean in? did you want to kiss me?" he looks away and doesnt say anything at first but then says, "no ew, i would never. we are just friends. and you already know that i like kaitlin sooo yeah but im not gay, not now not ever," he says. "oh," is all i can say. that hurt. bad.

ugh now i seriously hate myself.

"but why did you lean?" ashton asks me. i cant tell him why, i cant tell anyone why. i dont want being judged like i got judged when i was younger when everyone found out that i was dating a guy.

yeah that's right i dated a guy when i was younger. judge me, see if i care. his name was jacob, i loved him but he always hit me, he abused me all the time. he got arrested though, he was doing drugs.

"um well, i dont know," i told him..wow okay that just made me seem like i did want to kiss him. which i did i mean have you seen his lips, they look so soft and kissable i just- ugh i wish i can kiss those lips everyday.

"you do know, but you just want to hide it from me, what are you hiding from me?" he asks me, i close the curtain and ignore his question for the rest of the day, i close my eyes and think, 'why does he like her, why not me? am i too awful to like, oh wait. i forgot. he is straight. he only likes girls, if only i was a girl maybe then he would probably love me the way i love him.'

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Ashton's POV

wow okay who just ignores a question that is being asked. i feel like no one is telling me anything anymore. i hate it. i mean i thought we were a band, i thought we all trusted each other since we have been a band for 2 years.

i get up from my bunk and look at lukes bunk and sigh. i walk to the lounge and sit down on the couch taking out my phone. "you okay there ash?" calum asks me, "no," i tell him. "you can tell us, you know that right?" michael tells me, "yeah i can tell you, i can tell you everything, but guess what no one tells me anything anymore, i feel like every one knows something that i dont know. what is everyone scared of? what is everyone hiding from me? i need to know!" i say practically yelling at them.