PHOENIX POV
Everything I did was on impulse. I blocked his number, I deleted any photos of him on my phone, I just tried to wipe him out.
My eyes were so puffy and swollen that it hurt to open. I had taken a taxi home by myself. I was sitting on my bed. Just reflecting, thinking about everything that had just happened.
What was I thinking? That he would say he loved me too? I was setting myself up for failure. I was going to fail but I still tried.
I tried to calm myself, convince myself that I would get over it. That he was just a phase. But I couldn't, the pain wouldn't go away.
Aunt Leah walked into the room, out of breath, "I was worried sick! Why did you just leave?"
She saw my eyes and all my wet tissues. "Oh no what happened? Come here."
She wrapped her arms around me and I just cried. "Auntie, what do I do?"I said in between sobs.
She didn't say anything and just kept patting my hair. I don't remember when or how but I managed to fall asleep.
The next few days were spent in my hotel room, watching tv shows. Even Aunt Leah didn't go out. She said she was going to stay with me until I had the guts to walk out of that hotel and slap Jungkook in the face.
But I didn't really want to slap him. I couldn't slap him.
Even after hurting me so much, I still missed him. I still wanted him. I still wanted to try.
I wanted to try again even though I knew it would go nowhere.
It hurt so much to want something I couldn't have. The thought of him, his smile, that cute thing he did when he tried not to smile. God, I really liked him.
V called me 7 times, but I texted him,
"I'm busy." Every time. He didn't call after I texted that.
Sometimes I regretted blocking Jungkook's number, because I cut off my only way to talk to him. But then I remembered I didn't want to talk to him. That I was angry at him.
I found out so much about myself in those few days of solitary. I found out that I was convincing myself to be upset at Jungkook rather than actually being upset at him.
What was there to be upset about? I confessed my feelings, and he didn't feel the same way. I shouldn't have been upset, he didn't really do anything wrong. I had to accept the fact that I got my hopes up too high.
He was never going to take me seriously. I should've just given up. I thought for hours, maybe I should take an early flight home.
A knock on the hotel door surprised me. Aunt Leah was having breakfast in the hotel cafeteria and she had the room key. Who could it have been?
When I opened the door, I was shocked to see not only V, but Sejin and the rest of the boys. Except for him.
Jimin was holding a 'get well soon' balloon. That made me smile, but then my face got red realizing why they were even here.
They all knew about the horrible rejection. "Guys, why are we having a rejection party for me?" I groaned.
All of them started laughing, Jin spoke up in the midst of the laughter, "Its not a rejection party, it's a get well soon party."
