PHOENIX POV
I sat up as Jungkook slept beside me.
Aunt Leah's words were a lot to take in. It sounded great moving to Korea but was it really something I wanted to do?
I shook off the thought. My decision could come later.
For some reason I wasn't satisfied. I was anxious and my heart still hurt. Things were okay right? But why did I feel so unsatisfied? We "fixed" things but it didn't feel like enough.
Jungkook cooled me down but I just didn't feel good at all. There was still that painful swell somewhere in me. There was still questions I wanted to be answered.
We had been going on for such a long time, but I had never once heard him directly confess. Hell, we weren't even a couple.
Why did I always break in front of him? Why was I so weak?
I had always told myself that I would be strong when it came to boys. I'm too strong of a woman to let any boy tell me what to do. That's what I had always thought.
But why was the complete opposite happening now? Why was this boy taking over me?
I didn't know how Jungkook made me feel anymore. But I knew I didn't want to let go of him.
The thought made me a bit upset at Jungkook. I couldn't even look at him. I loved him so much but I only felt hurt when I looked at him.
We never just loved each other. There were always problems, stress, doubts.
I let out a big sigh, and bit my lip to keep myself from crying. I always cried in tough situations.
Why couldn't I just have a normal happy love life? Why did everything have to make me feel like dying?
Jungkook stirred up. Damn it.
I quickly blinked my eyes to dry any visible wateriness in them.
He sat up and pushed his hair back. I didn't turn my head. I really didn't want to face him.
"Are you feeling okay?" He asked, yawning.
I swallowed the hurt that came from his voice, "Can you leave?"
He immediately turned his body to face me, "What happened?"
"Leave."
He grabbed my hands but I pulled them back, "Please Jungkook. Just go."
I glanced up to face him. That face again. He was hurt. But I needed time to myself. Jungkook wasn't going to get me this time.
"Jungkook, leave before I call security."
His face flinched a little, "Phoe-"
I pushed him away from me and backed up from him. Why the hell was I doing this? What was I accomplishing?
I just needed to be alone.
"Jungkook. Just go." I said one last time.
He opened his mouth for a second, about to say something, but he immediately closed it and nodded his head. "Fine."
