PHOENIX POV
I didn't understand myself.
Part of me hated him. I hated him for leaving me. I hated him for making himself suffer on his own. I hated him for hurting himself.
The other part of me wanted to feel his touch again. To hold him and tell him I was going to be with him forever.
Maybe if I didn't run that night. Maybe if I stayed and asked him why. Would he be sitting there smiling?
It had already been a day, but still no update from V. I couldn't call him. I just couldn't bring myself too. I was honestly scared of knowing his condition. It would only hurt more.
My heart had never hurt this much before. It felt like someone was using their bare hands to pull it apart. My tears just made it harder to breathe.
The sound of my ringing phone made my head pulse. I reached out my shaking hands to grab my phone.
"H-hello?"
"Phoenix. It's MinHyuk. Did the activation work? I think there was a mistake with the numbers, I may need to send you another card. Is that okay?" His voice was so soft. It calmed me but only brought more tears to my eyes.
I started sobbing. I couldn't control it, he was too good for me. "M-MinHyuk I-i don't know what to d-do." I sniffles after every word.
"Wait, what's wrong? What happened? Are you hurt?"
"MinHyuk... I'm so selfish. Please break up with me. Please. You're too good for me. Find someone better." I said between sobs.
He sighed, "Phoenix. What happened?" His voice was serious now.
I didn't say anything, my throat was in pain. The swelling again.
"Is it... Jungkook?" He said, whispering the name.
Hearing his name made me burst out into more tears. Why was I crying? Why did I feel bad? I hadn't even seen him yet, how could I be crying?
"I guess it is about him." He took a deep breath, "What do I need to do?"
"MinHyuk b-breakup w-with meee..." I cried out.
"Tell me what I need to do. Do you need tickets here?" He asked, ignoring me completely.
"M-MinHyuk I'm n-no good. Y-You're my boyfriend... but I c-can't... s-stop thinking about someone e-else. Please." I tried to keep in my cries while speaking, but it just resulted in me choking on my tears and coughing.
"Stop it. I like you knowing very well that your heart isn't mine. I know you love him. But you're mine right now. I'm not giving you up for even a second. No matter how much you beg."
"M-Minhyuk... I really d-don't deserve y-youuu."
"Talk to your parents and I'll get you tickets. Don't worry. Just Rely on me."
"T-thank you MinHyuk."
"Now go talk to them. Goodbye." He ended the call first. I wondered if I hurt him. But he couldn't have been hurt. We weren't in love. Right?
