PHOENIX POV
It wasn't fair. He couldn't do that. He couldn't look at me like he was in love with me and call me his... friend.
It was selfish of me, but I couldn't be his friend. No, I couldn't accept it. Being just a friend was not enough.
I wanted him to know how I felt.
But I couldn't. How selfish would that be? He's satisfied with his life right? He didn't want me, he didn't need me.
V and Seoyoon decided on an Italian themed restaurant. I didn't really care, food was food.
"Why do you look so depressed?" V was such a safe driver. He never took his eyes off the road and gripped on the wheel so tight.
"I don't know Taehyung."
He let out a long sigh, "I think you two need a push."
I turned to look at him, "A what?"
"A push. You know, like a little spice." I saw the corners of his mouth tug up. He was definitely plotting something.
"Kim Taehyung, you are a dangerous man."
He slightly smiled, and the rest of the drive was silent.
The restaurant was super pretty, the lights were tinted blue and the tables were small and circular. Jungkook sat on the opposite end from me, so we didn't get to talk.
I'm not sure if I was emotionally prepared to speak to him after our "talk" anyways.
It was pretty embarrassing recovering from all my tears. Seoyoon and V showed up in the middle of my breakdown and I had to run to the park bathrooms to clean up.
But why did I even say anything? Jungkook probably thought I was insane.
I just stared at him from where I was sitting. His hair framed his face so perfectly and every strand looked so fluffy. I could really look at him all day. Jungkook, complete and utter perfection.
He made eye contact with me twice and each time, he would bite his lip and immediately look down. My stomach hurt, the butterflies again.
I want to tell him, I thought.
No. I couldn't.
I pushed my food around, I wasn't in the mood to eat anymore. V and Seoyoon were talking and feeding the kids while I just dozed off.
A vibration in my pocket shook me from my thoughts. Jungkook. I looked up to see him on his phone as well.
"Ya Birdie, eat. I'm not paying if you waste it."
He said that while his plate was just as untouched. He hadn't even eaten either.
"Says the one who's eaten half a piece of fruit."
Jungkook looked down at his plate like he didn't realize he hadn't been eating. He seemed genuinely surprised.
"Do you know what's funny?" Random. Jungkook was so weird. That literally came out of nowhere.
