kj apa
may 14th
"i just can't believe.."
"yeah.."
"yeah."
basically how our conversation has been ever since cami found cole like.. that.
yesterday.
i don't understand.
i want to understand.
he was okay.
he seemed okay.
was he okay?
yeah.
he had to be.
i think..
"i can't believe this was all he left." there's a crack in lili's voice. she's looking at the now extremely beat up note.
we look at it too much.
we always fold it and unfold it.
it's all we have of him.
"no one kills themselves for no reason, why didn't he tell us why?" cami says.
it's all kind of..blurry.
i can't concentrate.
he's gone.
he wasn't supposed to leave.
"kj?" camila snaps me out of my thoughts, "you okay?"
"yeah. just...still trying to process everything. you know?"
"yeah.."
silence.
it's empty.
it's awkward.
cole would've made a joke about it.
and we would've laughed.
or smiled.
and we would've had a conversation.
full of happiness.
but that's gone.
he's gone.
i let out a low mutter.
"i need to know."
"hm?" lili hums, curious to what i said.
"i need to know," i pause, "i need to know why."
"me too." cami sighs.
lili nods in agreement, "then why don't we find out?"
— ≛ —
sleep.
just go to sleep.
we didn't find anything today..
maybe some other time.
fucking hell.
this is like some twisted, real life version of who killed jason blossom?
we know who killed him.
we just need to know why.
you'll figure that out.
next season.
airing soon.
stop.
this shouldn't have any jokes made about it.
especially not riverdale jokes.
i need a break.
i reach my hand out in the darkness and feel a cool, thin rectangular object.
my phone.
i turn it on and go on twitter.
trending number 6,
#RIPColeSprouse
it was trending high yesterday.
so many people are tweeting about it.
and not just people mourning.
why are people so sick?
"@fuckingjeffords
wow. that motherfucker finally killed himself. who wants to party? #ripcolesprouse"
as much as i would love to reply to that sick bastard..
i don't.
as much as i love cole and as much as he doesn't deserve this..
i can't.
i'm tired.
i can't deal with a twitter fight right now.
so i turn off my phone, carelessly tossing it away,
and do my best to fall asleep.
— ≛ —
authors note
hi! here's chapter 1 of my story! hopefully you enjoyed because i worked hard on this fic and, yknow, i hope you liked it. don't forget to comment, vote and keep reading! thank you, byye!
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Fanfiction"cole sprouse has killed himself." a sentence that shocked everyone. the fans. the media. his friends and family. shortly after the first season of riverdale finished airing, and the second season was filmed, he was found dead. in bed, pale, with t...
