i was broken | c.s.

epilogue

kj apa

8 months later

i sip a beer and laugh as a funny scene plays on tv.

i look around the table, seeing lili resting her head on camila's shoulder.

madelaine posting on her story.

and casey hurriedly eating sushi.

i can still feel the now subtle emptiness of the room,

ever since cole was gone.

but it's better now.

we're all better now.

i'm better now.

i'm still waking up every night in confusion,

not knowing what's going on and why i'm screaming.

but it turns out it's a sleeping disorder caused by the trauma of losing cole.

i've been going to therapy for the past few months for that and depression.

taking medication and doing the therapy is definitely helping.

i feel happy,

and i love it.

of course i miss cole.

i never will stop missing him.

he has a reserved spot in my heart.

but, i realized, just because cole's gone...

it doesn't mean i should stop living.

literally and metaphorically.

and i know that this is what he wants.

for us to move on with life.

just.. not forget about him.

and we never will.

because he impacted our lives greatly through life.

and will continue doing so through death.

THE END

authors note

hey lmao,, so thAT'S IT FOR THIS STORY! lmao it'll take a while for a new story to come out..yikes, sorry guys i tried to finish a story but guess i couldn't? I'LL TRY TO GET SOMETHING OUT SOON I LOVE YOU

- s