See the rumors, lies, and secrets behind the two lovers Abel & Adira
Note: Just read the book I'm not good at intros but the beginning is fast I know my bad I dont feel like re-writing it
La Mar and I stayed silent with each other the whole flight. Nobody has really asked why we were talking to each other as they should, every once in a while we fight over stupid shit a couple times we've thrown hands but nothing we can't recover from. My temper isn't that bad for now.
The San Diego weather is hot and sunny, I mean really sunny! A nigga out here can go from caramel to fucking dark chocolate. I'm hoping Adira will show up, right now we are checking into the Omni hotel here in downtown.
a/n: lyric that I thought really related to the book atm "Out of all the people, I fuck up on you" -6lack, MTFU.
Once I got settled in my hotel room Sal texted me.
Tony: they moved the meeting to 12 pm FYI meet us down here at 11:45
Shit. I looked at the time, 11:15 am.
Adira POV
I decided to at least hear Abel out I'm meeting them for lunch whenever the meeting is out, only he knows about mine and Abel's relationship, in the meantime I'll be working with my new clients project, they are very demanding with everything!
3.5 hours later
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La Mar said to meet him at Balboa Park instead, it's chilly out today so I decided to wear ripped jeans with a casual shirt and a windbreaker jacket over, California is so bipolar with its weather! Earlier it was sunny and hot now it's freezing.
I'm sitting on a bench near the big fountain, the kids are playing in the water they're so cute but I'm freezing looking at them.
I don't know how to feel right now I don't know what Abel has to say, part of me is angry and the other part is happy. Before I can even make up my mind I felt a hand on my shoulder, causing me to slightly jump.
"Sorry baby I didn't mean to scare you.", it was Abel, he pulled me out of the bench and gave me a hug him back so bad these past couple days have been hard but I stood there while he was still giving me a tight hug while his cologne was making me weak.
"It's fine, where's everyone else?" I asked but he seemed slightly annoyed with that particular question.
"that doesn't matter right now, I'm trying to be a man and talk shit out with you and your ass is worried about fucking La Mar!"
"why would I only worry about La Mar? I worry about all of you."
"then why the fuck do you tell La Mar shit I've been dying to know?!"
"Abel....do you think me and La Mar have something going on?"
"Do you?!" he started to raise his voice which caused attention.
"I suggest you lower your voice, you're drawing attention and no! Of course not! I would never do no such thing to you, why would I?"
He just kinda shrugged, he really looks sincere and broken.
"I'm sorry, I think we just fell too fast for each other."
"Wh-what do you mean? Abel?" I felt my legs get weak, I took a seat on the bench.
"I'm not sure, I love you but I don't know.......can I ask for a favor though?"
I nodded while trying my best to hold back my tears.
"well it's a question rather than a favor and it's two instead of one..." he sighed "are we as broken as I think we are?" he paused for a moment "can you fly back with me to go to my grandma's funeral with me? My mom tends to ask about you."
"Of course I'll go with you, when are you leaving? And as far as your other question, you have to ask yourself that question, Abel."
"I don't even know what to think or feel! I love you but can't commit to anyone, it's hard as shit but I tried and it obviously didn't work out baby girl."
I looked down at my shoes, I was pretty speechless at the fact he didn't want me anymore.
he continued with his devasting speech "And I'm sorry we lost our baby, how did we loose our precious life?"
I find him being real...odd right now because just the other day he didn't give two shits about my baby and thought it was Don's, either someone talked to him or he's on something.
"I um I had a false pregnancy" it breaks my heart to even mention my unborn child.
"What the fuck is that? like a miscarriage?"
"No, the baby either didn't either fully develop or develop at all, but either way my body still thinks I'm pregnant and will have most pregnancy symptoms, it's rare but I can also get labor pains"
"Can this be a problem in the future? In case we do get really serious or you find someone better than me?" That must have been the most depressing thing I've heard him say and I've listened to trilogy numerous time.
"Do you even want kids? I know you don't want commitment, you've made that clear."
"Potentially, yes one day I do see myself with kids but I don't really see myself married."
"Abel...kids mean commit to the baby mama."
"I know that's why I consider adoption sometimes also because I think about those kids who don't got shit and how I could help them with their future and shit ya know?"
I nodded in agreement
"Listen to me baby girl, I know you're probably heartbroken right now but just know I still love you deeply and I still want you in my life and for you to be happy...even if it's not with me."
"That's the thing Abel, I am happy with you. I'm the happiest I've ever been because of you." I tried grabbing his hand but his phone chimed which caught his attention, he sighed with frustration.
"I'm sorry baby but I have to go" He lightly kissed my lip "text me" he said then proceeded to walk away with his hoodie covering his hair.
