I wake up in a hospital bed "damnit she was meant to lose" I said to myself.
"mona?" I heard two voices say, I turned to face the otherside and there was dad and janey stood there, I got some serious truth telling to say. I just looked at them and tears came running down my face I tried to speak but I couldn't.
"why didn't you tell me?" dad asked
"tell you what?" I managed to say
"about school and the tweets on twitter" I didn't answer and more tears came, dad sat on the edge of the bed and hugged me and I just cried even harder into his shoulder, the nurse came in and said I can go but I'm on suicide watch and can't be left alone. when we get back and into the suite I go straight to my room and then dad came in and sat on the bed.
"mona" I sat up and faced him "I'm sorry for ignoring you, I shouldn't have done that"
"it's fine"
"no it's not you've had the tweets starting and then we fell out and I ignored you and point blank avoided you in the lobby and when I was getting changed for the bar in Neptunes. how long has this been going on?"
"the twitter is new that started yesterday, and before that in school since the start of the academic school year"
"is this why you always wear 50,000 wristbands?"
"yeah, sorry i should of told you" he hugs me and kisses my forehead
"no I'm sorry, did you tell anyone?"
"the gang, they helped me loads but I just gave into temptation today"
"I researched the chain as well" my heart stopped I knew this day would come and I knew I should of done the white ones as a colour and draw a cross on it.
"are the colours meant to be weeks or days?"
"days" I said quietly, I let out a yawn and dad let me go to sleep but my door has to stay open so I don't do anything. I got changed into my pjs and climbed into bed, I always sleep on the right hand side whilst my puppy rex who is a cute little beagle slept on the inside by the wall but I wanted to hide so I took rex's side of the bed seeing as he is with Kenneth cause he wanted to do this dog show thing in Barcelona, I look at my wrists and damn I never done it this bad before. I look at the few plushies I got on my bed and I cuddle up to one of them. a few minutes later I look at the gerard way plushie, mickey got me this one 2 years ago for my birthday I always pick the one dad got me to cuddle up to when I'm sad so why did I pick this one. I change the plushie but I change it back "oh god" I quietly said to myself, I think I'm growing feelings for mickey. I wake up the next day and I sit up, I didn't have a dream or a nightmare it was all the fun times I've had with mickey then I get butterflies in my stomach when I looked at a photo of us all at the skatepark and I was next to him in the picture. I can't believe it I always said I wouldn't have a boyfriend until I've passed my exams but I'm in love with mickey. I go to the living room and dad was watching tv, it's 10am he should be downstairs working
"shouldn't you be with lez at the bar?" I asked
"when roxy arrives I will be"
"roxy arrives?"
"she is coming to keep an eye cause janey is at a meeting"
"you told her?"
"I had too, she promised not to tell anyone else" I just sit down and then roxy arrives and dad goes to work
"omg, I'm so glad you're ok" roxy said whilst hugging me
"I'm fine, dad made me deactivate my twitter and was going to take the tweets to school but I somehow managed to persuade him not to"
