Lulu's Book Of Rando Rants & Weirdness

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This book is literally a mistake and I'm sorry it and my existence

Moving on I want to vent.

I feel like my personality and realness and everything is being sucked out from me and I'm left being a fake decorated shell.

And I fill myself and want everyone thinks with fake emotions and everything, I try to convince myself that everything is okay and it's not.

I feel like I'm not doing good and I suck, which is true.

I know that there's so much better then me and I should be better but I just can't.

I feel like I'm generally not okay but I hide everything with humor and random fake happiness

I am happy sometimes and that's also when I'm with people who make me happy, and I'm doing what I want

Generally being weird and screaming and laughing with my sisters and being online sometimes and things like that make me happy but it always comes crashing down.

I feel horrible saying this but I can't stand a lot of people I know, including my brothers and mom.

My brothers are horrible, they destroy everything with no regards for anyone but themselves, including our lives.

They do nothing but ruin things and get rewarded, they're rude brats but it doesn't matter. I've done much more at their age but they're on some throne for nothing, and they don't care. They know I can't stand them and they ruin our lives and they're fine with that.

My other brother is just lazy, annoying, and doesn't listen at all.

My mother is just kvhvuj

She doesn't really do anything and at this point me abd my sisters just work for her without pay

She pays bills and everything but we do everything else, and it's not fine.

I am a twelve year old girl who is 2 grades back and already can't stand my life, my brothers dinner shouldn't depend on me to.

I can't complain to much because my sisters deal with it to and dealt with worse, and my mother just isn't good at mothering.

It's just very hard at this point and my emotional strength is weak, and I just don't want to do anything and feel like I just don't want this entire

Thing anymore.

Idk man I'm lost and sad