*Samms P.O.V*
“It was my entire fault. I accidently hit her when I tried swinging at Nick again. No-I. He took the first swing at me-but- Alright. Bye.” A male voice said. I tried to move my position, but something fell on the ground. I groaned as I felt a million pains attack me in my back, arms, face, and legs.
“Samm! Are you awake now?” said a worried Alex.
“Sadly. When I was in whatever I was in, I didn’t feel anything. Now I feel pain all over. And I smell orange chicken. “My gosh, I was babbling again.
“Well… When I hit you, I apparently hit you so hard, that the impact spread throughout your body. And ha-ha, I ordered orange chicken. I didn’t want to cook. Now Samm, we really need to talk.” Alex said, coming to where I was laying. He lifted my upper body and placed my head in his lap.
“Yeah. We do.” Was all I could say.
“Well, first. I’d like to apologize for hitting you. When I saw you on the ground, I thought… I thought you were dead. When they took your body, I was crying. Then they finally brought you home, saying that you just needed tons of sleep and that you had to take some pain medication. Now, for the fact that Nick said you are just a toy to me. Part of it is true. Yes, in the beginning, I was just using you. I made bets with Nick to see who could get you to moan sooner. I hid a camera and everything to capture it all. Don’t worry, I destroyed it and I paid Nick the money he won. Anyways, you and I started hanging out more, which was when I decided that I needed you Samm. I need you in my life. I can’t live without you. I can barely go a day without seeing you. You noticed that when I went to go get you at Nia’s that day. You just make me so happy. That lunch date today was when I was going to ask you out, but my plan got… Kinda ruined.” I just stayed completely silent.
“Tell me what you’re thinking.” He begged.
“I’m just thinking everything over. Give me a moment.” I said as I tried to get up. Alex helped me up and I slowly walked to the bathroom. I slammed the door so hard, that the frame shook. I slid down the wall onto the floor and brought my knees close to my face. I didn’t really feel any pain from my body at the moment, just pain in my heart. I placed my forehead on my knees and silently thought everything through.
I must have been in the bathroom for a while, because Alex knocked softly on the door.
“Can I come in?” he asked through the door.
“Yeah, I guess.” My voice said, sounding shaky.
Alex plopped down next to me and just stared at me. Finally, I got enough courage and I spoke.
“Alex, look. I love you so much. I can’t live without you either. When I wake up every morning and see you there, I can’t help but think how I lucky I am. But…” tears were beginning to spill over, ‘But I can’t do this. I just need some time to heal. And no, I’m not friend zoning you. And I’m sorry that I’m just an awful person. I just can’t handle this anymore. I’m just so broken and numb, that I don’t even know how to explain it. I’m so sorry.” After my little speech, I burst into tears. I cried into my knees while Alex just sat watching me.
After a little while, Alex just got up and left without a word. He got up and left me. This caused me to cry harder. Being in the bathroom, I remembered that my razor piece was still in the cabinet. I got up and went to it. I found the razor, lifted my Friend Locket that Alex had given me, and cut deep into my skin. I fell back to the ground, razor still in hand, and sobbed. I stayed there the whole night.
I guess I must of fell asleep, because I woke up with crust in my eyes and dried tears on my face. I quickly washed my face and left the bathroom. Alex was asleep on the couch. There were tons of beer cans scattered around him. He’s going to be so hung over. I thought.
I went to the fridge, grabbed an un-opened water bottle, got some Tylenol out of the medicine cabinet, and placed them on the little black coffee table by Alex. I went back into the kitchen, grabbed a piece of paper, a pen, and I began writing.
“Alex. I’m leaving. I can’t be here anymore. I can’t stand being around you, because I feel as if I broke you. I feel broken too. Please understand that I’m going on a little road trip. I’ll be back in less than a week. Also, I left you some water and Tylenol. I hope you didn’t drink too much. I guess by the time you read this, I’ll be gone. Bye Alex. I love you.
-Samm”
Shit. There were wet stains on the paper. That's when I reliazed that I was crying.
I put the note by Alex’s water and headed to my room. I grabbed a suitcase and started packing. After half an hour, I was ready to go. Quietly, I picked up my suitcase and left. I hopped into my car, (Yes I had a car, and I just didn’t use it much. Alex usually drove me all around) and drove to the nearest gas station. I filled up my tank and went inside the little convenience store. Grabbing a case of Monster, some chips, and 3 packets of gum, I paid for everything, put it all in my car, and began the drive to California.
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I know, short chapter ;D You guys, today was crazy. Like seriously.
A dog stole my cookie T-T Scared the crap out of me. Then when I was at a party, there was this girl that I didn't like there and I wanted to.. GAH. Anyways, yeah. Happy birfday Morganoooo. (;
Dedicated to Bellaruse because today is her birfday ! HAPPY BIRFDAY YOU HOBOOO<3. (: ILY !
I don't really have a song for this chapter so yeah. o__o.
I don't know what else to say. \; I'm just dieing down of my sugar high and I feel like sleeping, even if it's only 7:42PM Dx
Hugs and Kisses !xx
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Genç KurguSamm thought that her life was over. Alex didn't notice her and her friend got all the attention she craved for. Who would have thought that Alex felt the same way?
