Polarized | Finn Hudson

Hiding

I felt the subtle warmness of love swarm my heart pulling into their driveway. It felt surreal seeing the house and Finn's truck.

"I'm gonna walk in and tell him I have a late gift he can't see so he'll go up to his room because he was in the livingroom when I got you from the airport." Carol opened her car door and I nodded. I watched her walk inside the house and I waited quietly in the dark. It didn't take long before Carol peaked her head out of the front door and signaled me in. I hopped out of the car and grab my suitcase. My other stuff was still on its way over, so luckily we didn't have to worry about that. I rushed in and found my way to her room before she shut the door.

"I'd let you go into your room, but Finn keeps going in there to make sure everything is perfect for you." Carol smiled chuckling a bit. I set my suitcase in the corner of the room away from everything and awed at the cute little bed she made for me next to hers. "God I'm so happy you're back. Finn has been running around like a lost duck without you and I've been missing my cooking partner." She pulled me in a hug, swaying softly. "I've missed you guys like crazy.... but, it seems like I've lost myself throughout these few months and, I'm not sure if I'm gonna be the same Carol." I frowned sitting on the bed. "What do you mean darling?" She asked sitting down. "No one gave me time or help to cope, I've been forced to do it and still haven't managed to clear my head. And then my parents tried deciding my decisions and told me how I should be like them and not return to a trash town with no lavishes and broke people. And everything being thrown in the mix just cut all the wires in my head. I don't know who I am anymore, who I belong to, or who I want or need to be."

Carol's concerned look faded to sadness quickly. She calmly took my hands in hers and rubbed the tops with her finger. "You're home now Camila. Here, you can be whatever and whoever you want. You're my girl and I promise I will let you take as long as you need to process things. All you have to do is knock on my door and I'm ready to help you anyway I can." She smiled. Carol grabbed my head and planted a soft kiss on my forehead before being startled by a knock on the door. "Go go!" She whispered pointing at the closet. I leaped over the bed and ended up face planting on the ground of the other side before struggling into her walk-in closet. "Just a second!" She yelled dumping a drawer of clothes on my bed. "Mom if this is like the last time where I walked in on you trying on lingerie it can wait." Finn knocked again. My heart leapt from my chest hearing his voice live in person. I looked through the crack of the door and watched Carol open the door. "No Finn hush." Carol rolled her eyed trying to act calm.

Carol walked first before Finn finally came into my view. My breathing hitched as I grabbed a shirt hanging up and shoved it over my mouth to keep myself from making any noise. He looked like the same old Finn with the stupid freckles shining brightly across his nose and cheeks. My knees wanted to give out when I had released he had only his star wars pajama pants on. "What do you need hun?" Carol asked picking up random shirts from the pile and acting like she was mentally trying them on. "Do you think it would be too extra if I recorded us opening gifts to send to Camila? You know so she can feel like she's with us?" He asked.

It took everything in me not to bust out of this closet and run to him, but I managed to stay still. "Of course we can darling, I bet she'd love that." Carol smiled. Finn cheekily  looked to the ground at the pile of clothes. "Why are all your clothes on the ground?" He asked observing them. "Because I'm getting rid of them for the new year." She avoided eye contact and continued to shuffle the clothes around to make sure the bed was extra hidden. "I'd go through my closet, but I'm waiting on Camila to come home before I do it. I know there's a bunch of shirts she loves, but I honestly can't remember which ones because she hasn't been here to remind me how amazing she thinks I look in them." Finn put his hands in his pockets and I could feel his sadness.

"Honey, it'll be all okay. She'll be home sooner than you know it. And plus, you look handsome in everything." Carol winked at me before turning back to him. "Thanks mom. Well I'm gonna get to bed. Goodnight." He leaned over to kiss his mom's cheek before trudging out and shutting the door behind him. I waited a minute before quietly opening the door and wiping my tears away. "Must've felt good see him, huh?" She asked as I came over to help her put the clothes back. "It was even harder not to say anything." I chuckled a bit before putting everything back. I was too exhausted from traveling and seeing everyone tonight, so I just kicked my shoes off and crawled into the lumpy, but soft, bed. "Just a little bit longer and everything will start heading back to normal Cam, I promise." Carol turned out the light and crawled into her own bed. I looked at the picture of Finn set on the background of my phone before it faded and smiled to myself.

I'm free and I'm home.

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