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Hope -6

6

Hope

I woke up to the song that Ryan and I sang last night. It made me smile. I can't believe that Ryan and I are together. I admit, it is a bit weird keeping it a secret from everyone. I've kept secrets before, but I just wanted to shout to the world this one. Maybe I'm just madly in love with him. I've never knew love could feel this way. I feel insane. I got dressed, and went down stairs. "Hey dad," I said cheery.

"Someone's in a good mood," He smiled.

"Yup!" I giggled. I got a glass of water, and some toast.

"California really made you happy. What did you do there?" my dad asked me.

I can't tell him. I don't want to lie to him. I guess I have to. "Just some sun," I smiled.

"You're off for today. The guys are in LA writing some songs this week," My dad said.

They told my dad, but not me. Whatever. I went up stairs with a fake smile, and texted Ryan, "Why didn't you tell me you're going to Cali this week?" I waited for him to reply. It might take a few hours. He's always doing something.

I let out a sigh, and put in my headphones. I laid down on my bed, and looked up. I thought about a lot of things. Hope. Dreams. Love. I thought about how much I love Ryan. I really shouldn't get upset about him not telling me what he was doing this week. I mean we did just start all this up. I don't even know what we are. We're not lovers, but we're more than friends. I closed my eyes, and feel asleep.

I woke up, and I stretched out my arms. I heard Dreams by Fleetwood Mac playing in my headphones that where still in. I took off my headphones, and laid them on my bed by my phone.  I looked at my phone to see a text from Ryan. I looked at it, and read it out loud,"I forgot".

I got up, and put my phone in my back pocket. I walked down the staircase into the living room. I looked out the windows to the pool. Should I take a swim? Nah. I laid down on the sofa, and turned on the TV. There is always nothing on. Is dad still here? 

"Dad! Come here! Oh my gosh! Help!" I called out. Nothing. He's gone.

I sat up, and texted Ryan that I'd miss him.

I heard the door close. I got off the sofa, and called out, "Is that you dad?" 

"Nope. Just me," Jake said with a smile on his face.

I stood there in shock. After all these years he comes back.  "The last time I saw you was when you ripped out my heart at that lake with our old friends," I rolled my eyes, and went to get a glass of water.

"C'mon. You can't still be mad about that," He grinned. He's so cocky. Why did I even like him to begin with?

"Leave, Jake," I demanded.

"No. I want to talk to you. I heard you where back in town, and so I  talked to your dad. He wants us to get back together,"

"No," I said.

"Look, I didn't want this either, but your dad, and my mom really want this," He walked up to me. I could see he wasn't lying.

"What makes them think I'd ever get back with a guy like you?" I crossed my arms.

"Why do you have a boyfriend already?" He asked.

"No," I lied.

"Well, you're dad said I can go out with you,"

"That doesn't mean I'm going to," I walked away in frustration.

"Sara! C'mon! Don't you want to make your dad happy?" He asked.

"Not if it means going out with you!" I yelled.

"Fine! You're a whore anyway!" I listed as he slammed the door shut.

I covered my face, and started to cry. I'm not a whore. Am I? I looked down at my phone. I had a message from Ryan that said, "Come what may". I smiled, and it was then that I realized I have hope.  I have hope that Ryan will come back home. I have hope that the stars will never stop shining. I have hope, and I feel like that's all I ever need in life. No matter how hard things get, I have Ryan. I know I will always love him. Always.