The Cube's Secrets

Dreams

Bayani - 

I finished the test!

I took the bus and when I got home I hopped onto TS. Bee was the only one on. She knew I would have finished around this time, she must have wanted to talk to see how it went.

"Hey Bee!" I said when I got on.

"Bayani how did it go?!" She exclaimed!

"To be completly honest, I am pretty sure I failed that exam."

By the way I spoke, I knew she was confused as to why I didn't sound upset and why I wasn't as concerned as she was, but I didn't really mind if I failed the class. I would just have to take another small class just to get all my credits, and then I could graduate from this school and move on.

"What?!" it sounded as if she was mad, but I wanted her to know that I was okay with it anyways. I would have prefered to be done with this college, but I really didn't mind having to take something simple, that would almost be so easy to pass, all I would have to do is just show up.

So I told her that!

The only problem is I have no clue what else I wanted to do. I was originally just planning to take calculus when I started the course, but then I got into YouTube. And I love doing what I am doing now, because it is what makes me happiest the most!

 I stayed on TS for a while with bee, but she seemed like she was about to pass out. But then I'd realized I had kept her up all weekend, and she tried to act excited for me about the exam, but she had been so drained out by me. We got into a skype call instead because I wanted to make sure she went to sleep. I needed to see her sleep because I wanted to make sure she was okay. 

But I must have fallen asleep over the call with her, I had a dream. It was hard to remember what was real and what wasn’t because I remember talking to her for a while before, we were both talking about our futures. I wanted to be in hers and she wanted to me in mine. And then the next thing I remember was her telling me she wanted to see me.

Then I remember her telling me she was in Seattle and she needed me to get her from the airport, I got in the car and drove as fast as I could. Everything was happening so quickly in the dream, but it was one of those dreams where you couldn’t identify the real from the fake, so I went along. I remember picking her up and seeing her in the airport. I remember holding her close and with a gentle care, I remember hugging her with a fiery passion of a thousand suns. I never wanted to lose this moment, because I loved every second of it, standing in the middle of the airport with hundreds of people bustling around us.

During all of that, it seemed like one of those dreams where it was so fake I believed it, but in that moment, it was real. We both felt it. I wish it was real, it felt so perfect, so right. We were meant to be together forever. Even if that means I have to wait, weeks, months, or even years.

Our love is worth the wait.

But for now, these were just our dreams. And sadly, real life would never be as good as our dreams.

Bee -

I was upset, I wanted him to do so well.

But I will be alright, I was more worried for him considering he studied so hard and I thought he wanted it, but he seemed alright, so I was going to be alright too.

I just wanted him to be happy. Because lately he has seemed really down. I wish I could be there for him, like a normal girlfriend. I thought that if he passed the test he wouldn't have to take another class for full credits, and then he can have some more time to do what he wants for a couple months, he could have been happier.

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I thought things would have been okay. But it just started to get worse.

Straub -

It makes me sad.

I want to have bee be mine. But . . . I want her to be happy. And it hurts seeing her love someone else. What about us?! Why did I ever meet Bayani?! She left me for him and all his friends. I used to think I was going to marry her, but now she shares her dreams with someone else.

It also kills to see an old friend want someone so bad. I feel like I want to help, but I want her just as much as he does.

But I feel like he has changed. He seems lost. He basically won her. He should be happy.

I need to talk to him. But I don't know how anymore...