The Cube's Secrets

Determination

I DO NOT HATE KRICKEN, I DO NOT LOVE HER EITHER. YES I AM SUBSCRIBED TO HER AS WELL AS TO THINK. I AM ALSO SUBBED TO ALL MEMBERS WHO WERE AND STILL ARE APART OF THE CUBE! I HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND THIS IS A STORY AND ONLY FOR ENTERTAINMENT!! NONE OF THIS IS ACTUALLY TRUE OR FALSE! I DO NOT PICK SIDES! THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING. I EXPLAINED THIS IN THE FIRST CHAPTER! YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN HAVING FALSE ACCUSATIONS ABOUT MY "OPINIONS" AND THEY ARE NOT TRUE. HOPE YOU UNDERSTAND WHERE I AM COMING FROM AND I ENCOURAGE YOU TO CONTINUE READING! THANK YOU AGAIN! <3

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Bayani -

Why is it so hard for me?

Sometimes I feel like life is harder for me than it is for others.

And by that. I mean Straub.

I never knew why straub had left high school early. But when I saw his most recent Strauberry Sunday of him explaining it, it infuriated me.

I worked so hard in school. I was not the most behaved student, but I was one of the smartest. I worked so hard to succeed. And yeah, I did. I grauduated from school when I was sixteen. I worked so hard for that.

But Straub on the other hand, he dropped out of school around the same age. I know he said that if was the right decision. But I don't believe his shit one second. He might be able to fool his subscribers into believing he is going to be okay, but what about years later when his YouTube channel dies. It is going to happen eventually. Not for a long while maybe. But someday, he will be screwed.

We both have our problems. I have a life full of regrets, but he will oneday have those same regrets. I am going to learn from my life. I am not going to be a fool and not mess up later. 

My favorite quote is "Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards."

I guess Straub doesn't know that. He is the opposite of me. 

Maybe thats why we don't get along. We are completely different people both wanting the same girl.

I need my subscribers to see the truth.

I need them to see who I am. And they need to see Straub too. 

Bee -

I don't know what to do anymore. Why has everything changed?

Bayani and I talk everyday. But he seems to be sad. And I am not sure why. He says it is just school stress. But there is something more to that. And I know because Straub has been trying to talk to me even more than usual. I am not as stupid as they think I am. 

They need me for something. I am not sure what they need, they aren't even friends any more. But they need my help.

I hate how Straub is getting more defensive over me too! I hate how he treats me as a toy. I feel used. 

This is why I hate change.

But I keep reminding myself change is just a different normal. Eventually it will change again. And things will get better. Bayani will be happy again. Straub and I will become normal friends again. Maybe Bayani and I can meet in real life?

Or maybe finally start a relationship and take it seriously.

I really love him. And the feeling is mutual. I know we are meant to be. We are perfect tomorrow.

I need to get to Seatle.

I need him.

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I am really sorry for the lack of uploads these past few days! I have been really busy lately because I just got back from school and all. I promise I will start uploading once I get my grades back and get comfortable! Thanks for understanding! I will be sure to upload maybe once this weekend! So sorry for a short chapter and not uploading as much lately! Thanks for understanding! :)