The Cube's Secrets

It's Never Okay

Straub - 

 I joined the Cube.

Everyone was happy. Everything was well again. Everything was fixed. 

Until I saw Bee and Bayani both on.

I was fine with them. I got over my hatred. My fans didn't want it to be like that. So I couldn't start anything. I was just going to behave and be civil over the whole thing.

But I soon realized they weren't talking. That was the thing, no one was on teamspeak. They weren't talking in chat. And it wasn't a day Cube episodes are supposed to be posted. So they wouldn't be recording. 

I was confused.

I called Bee to talk.

"Hey Bee!"

"Oh... hi straub."

What was wrong? Her voice sounded lonely. "Hey, what's wrong? You seem kinda down today." I asked.

"Nothing."

We ended up talking for an hour or so. I tried and tried to get her to speak up and tell me what was wrong. Eventually spilled everything. Bayani left her. What I said about Kricken that one night. What started it all up again. It was my fault what I said, I never meant it to hurt Beeyani. And especially Bee. It just kinda happened. Why would Bayani be mad at her? I did it. She just recorded it.

But no. She started to cry. I didn't know what to say. She was hurt. Broken. Inconsolible. What could I do?!

"Bee, never be afraid to fall apart, because it is your opportunity to rebuild yourdelf the way you wish you had been all along."

Did I say the right words? I've never been good with people. Obviously after all that I had done this year. I almost lost the Cube. I lost Kricken. I can't.

Maybe Bayani was always right all along. Maybe I should leave. I don't know what i could do for Bee. It's all my fault she lost him. I am a love killer. I destroy everything.

Bayani wasn't the monster, I am.

Bee - 

Bayani was always here for me in times like these. When I couldn't stop crying, he would be there for me. 

But then I started to think, shouldn't the ones who love mealways be there for me?

He never loved me. When he said those words, when he wanted to leave me, it was on purpose. He never loved me anyways.

Good-bye Bayani.

I wish you still loved me. I wish those dreams we had, those nights, those memories together meant something to you.

I wish I still meant something to you, but I guess not. I guess this is Good-Bye.

I hope you are happy and smiling without me. I guess I don't deserve anyone after the way I treat them. 

I hope you're happy.

Bayani - 

Why? I love her. I really want to. But it's hard. I have fans telling me two different stories. Two different opinions. Maybe kricken way always right all along. Maybe if I'd just realized why Think was leaving first. I wish I knew before, that way it doesn't hurt as much to lose you.

Maybe I was wrong all along.

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Literrally hating everything rn. I am so sorry for not updating on any stories, but between school, and crying cause Cube and Kricken and omg, I just don't have the time. I will hopefully be back soon. And I will update even more as the school year comes to an end, but for now, it's hard, so enjoy this really short chapter for now! :/