The Cube's Secrets

A Choice

Sorry for not posting lately. I have time and everything, but I have had no motivation till now. One night I was just sitting in my roon avoiding my math homework and got ideas and motivation and it was great! So I should be posting more parts soon but I need you to understand either time or writers block is giving me problems. Thanks guys! <3 Enjoy!

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Vas-

I feel like I am not even doing anything. They are just causing themselves trouble. It is getting too easy for me.

I don't even need to try.

Bayani-

This mess was getting out of hand.

I can't love her any more.

Long distance will never work. I feel like everything has gone wrong ever since we had feelings for each other. It's my fault I dragged her into this war anyways. 

I mess everything up. And I don't want to be the reason she is tortured. Why am I a failure?

I give up. I just can't love her any more.

I called her.

"Bee, I can't love you."

'What?" She asked confused with concern. "What is wrong Bayani? I thought you were going to be fine?"

"I did everything wrong. Blame me. Straub, Kricken, Vas and think. I am slowly ruining everything. And I can't ruin you. I can't do that to you. We can't be together. I can't love you! Please, Bee, listen to me. I want you. But all I do is destroy."

It was silent. I was crying.

I don't ever cry, but there I sat. With one silent tear dribbling down the side of my face. Waiting to here her go. She had to get away from me before I ruin anything else. I made my choice. It was the end.

I exited the call before she could process what I said. Before she could decline my request of her. 

I said good bye. I guess this is the end.

What did I do with my life?

How did I mess everything up?

I only know how to destroy what I love. And she would have be next.

Good bye.

Bee-

I just lost what I loved most.

I feel broken. My heart. No one can never replace what we had together.

I don't care what anyone else said. I didn't care if they supported us. I know most of our close friend don't think long distance is a good thing. I also know we lost some of our closest friends. But I don't care what they say. Fuck society. When I lost those "friends", it didn't hurt as much as it does losing him.

He might have made up his mind to protect me.

But I am an adult too. I can make decisions too. And I can't stand this. I can't live without him. We spent all those nights together. We talked about everything. I never thought he should regret his past, he shouldn't be this way right now. We are supposed to have a future together someday. It can't end like this. He loves me too. 

We can't lose each other like this.

We just can't.

I will beleive. 

"Never apologise for love." - Parker

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Honestly, I feel like some people are acually going to believe they are over and that is it. But That is not the ending of the story. That would be a shitty ending. So I am just making this after note explaining that the story is NOT over. And it is actually just getting really really good! So I hope you did enjoy and thank you for all the support! I promiseeeee i will write more. I am just having some writers block and motivation/time issues. Sooooo yeah! thank you again! :D Hope you containue to read! <3